Into The Stillness


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Photo by Leah Schroeder

I dive deep into this quiet place, the void, the nothingness and infinite possibilities all at the same time.

I sit in this stillness, allowing myself to grieve lives lost, relationships that have fallen away as I have opened up to allow my light to shine.

In this space in time I shed old energy.  I observe my reactions and emotions to events around me.

I sit in stillness, listening for the insights to guide me beyond this present moment.

In this moment, I recognize I have temporarily moved into the shadows.  It feels like a rubber band being pulled back, so that once released will fly forward with tremendous force and momentum.

I sit in stillness, being, breathing, feeling the peace in this space in time.

I am the bud of a flower.  I am growing, shifting, and changing, ready for the perfect moment to explode open with brilliant colour, light and beauty.

I sit in stillness, discovering this spiritual being within this physical body, this being that is so much bigger and brighter than the physical container that holds it.

I am love, contained for the moment within this vessel, allowing space to refill so there is more to give to others as I begin to overflow again.

I sit in stillness, appreciating this gift.  At first I resisted this experience, trying to figure out the why of it all.  I have shifted into acceptance and peace.

I have surrendered to the flow of life.

I sit in stillness, embracing the beauty of this moment with love and gratitude.

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Relationships In This Time Of Awakening


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

Relationships at the best of times can have their challenges to navigate whether they are with family, friends or the more intimate relationship with one’s partner.

Maybe it’s just me, but it feels the closer I am with people, the more intense relationship dynamics are at this time. As more light flows in, and shadows are exposed, the more things come to the surface to be healed. Generally, people seem more sensitive, including myself, and sometimes that can create friction or resistance and some challenging circumstances to work through.

I have experienced on occasion, the use, or choice, of words being challenged or misunderstood. Everyone has a different understanding of the words or phrases we use. This can at times lead to misunderstanding. This is particularly true via social media. When we speak directly with each other, via phone or face to face, we hear the tone of voice or see into the others eyes and have a greater understanding of the heart, or intent behind the words used.

I am human. I have emotion. Sometimes things anger or frustrate me. Other times I feel great joy and passion for the beauty of life around me. Sometimes I feel pain and sadness. Other times I feel in a place of peace and calm. I often feel what others around me feel and sometimes get caught up in their energy. If I see a situation where it appears that someone is being treated unfairly or is misunderstood, I will often stand up for them. My truest nature is gentleness and kindness and I do my best to allow that to be what radiates out from me and what others see in me. More and more I am learning through all those different emotions, to feel love and gratitude for myself and allow that to fill me up and flow out from me.

The expression of these emotions is also part of my awakening. For most of my life I have suppressed my feelings. Having the courage to express myself, even if the person I am sharing my feelings with may not receive this well, is important. Their response or reaction may be a reflection of where they are at in their own process. I do my best to do this from a place of love. I am still figuring out who in my life it is safe to do that with and who it is not. It is most important that I speak my own truth. I strive to always live from my heart. My intentions are always good.

I believe the strongest relationships are those that will stand by you even when things get a little messy. They are the people that will be the most honest with you and will challenge you, and yet be there for you when you need it most, and love you no matter what. They are the people that you feel safest with to fully express all of who you are – your whole, messy, awakening self. That is the kind of person I strive to be. Those are the people I choose to surround myself with.

Some relationships will survive this wild ride we are on, and become deeper, richer and stronger. Some will need to be released to make way for others to come in. It is not for us to judge when that happens, just to trust the process and know that it is all for the highest and best.

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Boundaries


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

A few conversations I have had in the last week or so challenged me to reflect on the whole idea of boundaries and how we view life happening around us.  We create boundaries to define property, or ownership.  This is mine and that’s yours.  This is my country, that’s your country; my yard, your yard, me, you.  It is an illusion of separation.

After a meditation recently, we talked about how when tragic events happen in the world, whether on a small or large scale, we have an opportunity to shift the energy of the experience by responding with love and compassion. Events in the world like 9/11 or major natural disasters like the 2010 earthquake in Haiti, are large scale examples where the response to these events have raised the energetic vibration of the entire planet.   I began to explore this concept on a more personal level.

Prior to this, a good friend expressed concern over a particular situation, and the potential for me to be hurt by another’s actions.  I am grateful for her care and the opportunity it gave me to reflect on this subject.  I know she will be reading this so I write this with the utmost love and respect.

Over the past few months I have had the opportunity to participate in a few Sacred Womyn Workshops.  I talk about the energy of our words and the impact the energy we hold in our body affects us and the world around us.  I talk about learning to live from a place of love and peace and the power of that to heal ourselves and the earth.

When I consider what it means to truly live from a place of love, with love there are no boundaries.  There is no separation.  Everything is a reflection of something within me, including whatever dynamics I experience with another person.  So, I can choose to put up walls to protect myself from those dynamics or I can hold an energy of love and peace.  My partner and I often talk about how in any given moment we can choose to respond to life with fear or love.

This doesn’t mean I should or need to engage in a relationship with someone that has harmed me in some way.  I can choose not to.  If I am holding that energy of love, I will attract situations and people that resonate on the same vibration I am at.  If what I have attracted doesn’t appear to be on the same vibration, is it possible I have attracted it because it is a reflection of some aspect of myself?  If I look at it as a shadow side of myself, I can bring it into harmony with other aspects of my being by shedding light on it and bringing in an energy of love and compassion.

At the same time, if an opportunity presents itself where I can engage in dialogue with someone that may have “hurt” me in some way or treated me badly or has differing beliefs from myself, I can choose to connect with this person from a place of love.  This creates a possibility for transformation for both me and the other person.

I have done a lot of work to break down the walls around my heart.  I am still a work in progress.  Being love and living from that place, requires me to keep my heart open.  It requires me to be vulnerable.  It requires me to be awake to possibility, to risk and to have faith.

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Lessons From A Challenging Journey


Morning Fog off Rennie River - Photo by Leah Schroeder

Morning Fog off Rennie River – Photo by Leah Schroeder

During the Womyn’s Gathering I participated in recently, a group of us hiked to a sacred site called Tie Creek.  I wrote about this place last year.

It was a difficult trek.  It is approximately 10 km each way.  We left before lunch and I didn’t have time to pack much to eat.  I had some flax crackers, sunflower seeds and a bottle of water.

We gathered on the bridge over the waterfall and began our journey through a forested area. There were a lot of Mosquitos.  We had to walk fast to keep from being bitten.  It was a warm day, but long pants and sweaters were needed for protection from the bugs.

More than 3/4’s of the way to Tie Creek, we arrived at what is known as the Sounding Stone.  It is like a gateway to Tie Creek.  There are two large boulders that mark this entrance,  the first one is the Sounding Stone.  Here, an offering of tobacco is placed and a prayer made to set the intention for one’s visit to this sacred place.  It is said when you clap on the rock with your hand or another rock, if it doesn’t sound, you don’t have permission to proceed.  When it sounds, particularly when using a small rock, it almost sounds like the beat of a large drum.  This can also be considered an announcement of your presence, to let the spirits know you are on your way.

From this point, our journey became a bit more challenging.  I felt we needed to turn to the left, but others felt the obvious path to the right was the correct way to go.   Maybe there are a few ways to get to our destination.  We followed this path, and part way through waded through a boggy area, followed by a short open area & then came to the entrance of more forest.  This didn’t feel right.  We turned around and went all the way back to the Sounding Stone to search for another way.  We looked along the tree line to the left, but couldn’t see an opening for a path.  I knew there was a reason we were finding this so challenging.

We followed the first path again, continuing to search along the tree line for an opening.  The guide and I went ahead to see if we could find the right way, but ended up turning back.  It was quite warm out and everyone was getting tired.  We must have been walking back and forth from the Sounding Stone for about half an hour.  We went back to the Sounding Stone one more time.  This time I walked closer to the tree line.  There was a lot of dead trees fallen over.  I stood in front of one fallen tree and looked beyond it through the trees.  This time the path showed itself to me.  I could see through to the other side where there was rocky ground.  This is what I was looking for.

Several people had turned around and went back to the gathering site by this time. There were still 15 of us who continued on.  When we got to the fence that surrounds Tie Creek – a 10-12′ high chain link fence with barbed wire around the top and bottom (no one has a clear explanation as to why this sacred place needs this – something the government put up).  We didn’t have a key, so we found a spot where there was enough of an opening between the bottom of the fence and the ground.  A few of us held up the fence and one person held up the barbed wire, as people shimmied under the fence.

I walked to the top of the rock, and took off my wet socks and shoes, to connect directly to the powerful healing energy of this ancient rock.  I encouraged others to do the same.  I wandered around for a while, trying to find the same spot I meditated last year, a spot where there are offerings left for the little people of the forest – shiny objects, like beads, a little chair, a little metal bucket.  I left some sunflower seeds and a tobacco offering.

I sat down on the rock, to spend some time in meditation.  I could feel the presence of the little people.  They were watching me.  I could hear them rustling in the woods.  I may have even heard them singing and drumming.  After a short time, I began to sound my voice, toning whatever notes felt like emerging from within.  A couple of times, on my hands and knees, bent down to connect my third eye with the rock beneath me.  Some bees buzzing around me, let me know when my meditation time was complete.  I went back to the top of the rock to wait for the others.

When we were ready to leave, I got everyone to form a circle and we created an energy wave that we sent out to the gathering and to the rest of the world.

When we left this space, and got back to the Sounding Stone, we offered tobacco and said a prayer to thank Spirit before continuing on our way back to the gathering.  The forest seemed extra thick with mosquitoes as we moved quickly through this part of the journey.

When I arrived back at the gathering site and shared the story of our journey, I was reminded that likely the reason we had such a hard time finding the path by the Sounding Stone, is because those that got tired and turned around to go back, likely weren’t ready to journey to Tie Creek.  It wasn’t their time to be there. It was a good lesson for us to recognize this. We also learned the importance of trusting our intuition. Everything happened as it was meant to.

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Emotional Triggers


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

Sometimes, you think you have dealt with something and moved past it, and then something happens to trigger emotions that are lying deep below the surface.  There is almost an unreasonable response to the event that triggers these feelings considering how far you have come and yet there it is.  It seems like a lot of people have stuff coming up in need of clearing and healing at this time.

In the last couple of weeks I have experienced this and have been completely unraveled by this set of circumstances.  I have allowed myself to feel my way through this, feeling pain, sometimes anger, and for a brief time, wondering where I belong in this world.  Reaching out to my close friends brings me some comfort and I feel supported and connected.

I realized I needed to spend some time healing these emotions that have come up.  I still have work to do to release judgement and to get past re-living this in my mind trying to figure out what went wrong.  Where did I fail and why wasn’t I enough?  I thought I had already healed and moved past these feelings. This trigger seems to have brought this to the surface to peel away and heal another layer.  I am enough.

I acknowledge the need to focus on all the good in the situation and what gifts I have received from this experience.  Gratitude.  I spend some time writing down all the things I am grateful for with respect to this relationship.

More connections with women follow, with shared experiences and feelings.  I am not alone.

Awareness of the energy of the Full Moon and the Lunar Eclipse, I acknowledge it is a time to let go of those things so I can move forward.  I celebrate the moon.  I meditate.  I set out water to be charged and healed by the moon.  Once the Full Moon is past, I say a blessing, and drink from this healing water. I meditate some more.

The day after the Lunar Eclipse, I pull out some Angel Blessing cards I use to set my focus for the day.  Often I only pull one card.  This morning I feel compelled to pull three.  They are all Angel Daniel cards about clearing judgements, which clearly tells me “Pay attention Leah!”  The blessing cards I pull are Forgiveness, Homecoming, and Kindness.

Forgiveness has to do with forgiving the other and more importantly myself.  Kindness, I believe, has to do with being kind to myself, honoring myself, letting go of judgement and allowing space for self-care and healing.  Homecoming, someone pointed out, has to do with coming back into union with one’s true self.  I have heard this message from other sources.  I believe this is a universal message for this time.

Today is a new day.  I have shifted into a new space and feel strong again.  I am okay.  I am connecting with many different people and finding community in different places.  Many people are experiencing these shifts at this time.  Let us hold each other in love and light as we support each other through all this change.

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Watching An Artist At Work


I watched an artist at work the other day. I was at home, looking out across the pond at the beginning whispers of sunset. Out of the corner of my eye I caught sight of a meaty looking spider, just beginning to build its web. Have any of you ever seen this?

I’ve seen them repair webs or catch my attention to one built nearly to completion, but I’ve never seen a spider start from the first threads, with its design obviously already in mind.The spider was on the other side of the screened porch so I was nearly eye to eye with it numerous times, but wasn’t feeling apprehensive. I suppose it would probably be classified as a medium- sized spider with thick brown legs, and it moved very quickly.

He started out dropping down in a free fall right in front of me. It caught my eye because I wondered what happened to it. Did it die suddenly? But once it had stopped in mid-air about hip level, it turned around and went back up the way it came.

The spider then seemed to dance with precision to the far left of where it started and then to the right, all the while stopping in the middle of the first thread and adding to it. The spider did this several times, creating the ambitious width of the web while also concentrating on a ball of thread in the very center. It looked like a miniature ball of white yarn.

Once it had the center well-defined it then dropped low again, this time not stopping until it reached a blade of grass on the ground. It did some work there as I realized it was anchoring the web to the ground. That’s when I became even more fascinated.
The spider went around and around the circumference of the area it had marked off with equal measure around the central knot. Its movements were even and purposeful and it seemed to take no notice of me staring at all.

As I stood there for several more minutes, I became simply dumbfounded at the beauty and dedication of the work I was witnessing. The spider seemed in complete control, going around the center point over and over, each time just a fraction of an inch away. I wondered if the spider was creative in making different webs, or if he always uses the same patterns. Is it better to always stay with what you know is safe and works, or to take a risk and often try something new to grow on?
And then I realized the full miracle of this observation. It isn’t just that this physical feat is impressive, or its amazing effectiveness in catching food. It isn’t even just about the beautiful visual design and how it captures rain drops and light glistening against it in the sun.

Look at the even more blatant spiritual lesson here.

The spider starts with a single thread and creates its central point and then anchors it off on the ground. Even spiders work on being centered and grounded! That’s how important it is! That is the kind of perseverance we need to remind ourselves to find our center and be grounded each day. With practice, the little stuff really does become nothing to sweat about, and everything really does work out the way it is supposed to.
There is a lesson in everything, we just need to be present to hear it.

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I am a 43 year old mother of 3, living in Florida with my partner and youngest child. Like the mythological phoenix, I have been reborn out of the ashes of my former way of life and have, for the last several years, set out on an exploration of self expression through visual art and creative writing. I am immensely grateful to feel a part of every living thing in existence and the emergence of a growing evolution of consciousness within and throughout. I am interested in all aspects of energy healing and spiritual transformation and have just recently become a student of Reiki. I understand there is always a choice and I try to choose love over fear at every turn. I am grateful for all of the other women in this group and for their ever present support and guidance. Jennifer Bothast

Waiting for Spring


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

Writing something new has been a bit of a challenge for me lately. I am working on a creative project at the moment. When I begin to focus on it, I find time flies by. Before I realize it, four hours have passed and I haven’t moved from my computer. This is a productive day.

I flip flop between enjoying the solitude of my day and craving the company of others. I consciously make an effort to engage in meaningful experiences throughout the week that involve the opportunity to connect with others. I am grateful for those times.

When I do find the quiet of my home being too much for me, I turn to meditation. Recognizing the connection to Spirit, that I am Spirit, and connected to all things, eases my feeling of separation. Remnants of pain and loss sometimes rise up from my heart to be released and healed.

This has been a long Winter. One can hear it in conversations that many people are ready for it to end. It is like a guest that has overstayed their welcome. Thankfully, there are signs that it is leaving shortly. The geese are starting to arrive.

The coming of Spring brings promise of new growth and new life. Days are getting longer and the sun is getting warmer, temperatures are slowly rising. What new adventures lie on the horizon waiting to be discovered?

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