Into The Stillness


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Photo by Leah Schroeder

I dive deep into this quiet place, the void, the nothingness and infinite possibilities all at the same time.

I sit in this stillness, allowing myself to grieve lives lost, relationships that have fallen away as I have opened up to allow my light to shine.

In this space in time I shed old energy.  I observe my reactions and emotions to events around me.

I sit in stillness, listening for the insights to guide me beyond this present moment.

In this moment, I recognize I have temporarily moved into the shadows.  It feels like a rubber band being pulled back, so that once released will fly forward with tremendous force and momentum.

I sit in stillness, being, breathing, feeling the peace in this space in time.

I am the bud of a flower.  I am growing, shifting, and changing, ready for the perfect moment to explode open with brilliant colour, light and beauty.

I sit in stillness, discovering this spiritual being within this physical body, this being that is so much bigger and brighter than the physical container that holds it.

I am love, contained for the moment within this vessel, allowing space to refill so there is more to give to others as I begin to overflow again.

I sit in stillness, appreciating this gift.  At first I resisted this experience, trying to figure out the why of it all.  I have shifted into acceptance and peace.

I have surrendered to the flow of life.

I sit in stillness, embracing the beauty of this moment with love and gratitude.

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Relationships In This Time Of Awakening


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

Relationships at the best of times can have their challenges to navigate whether they are with family, friends or the more intimate relationship with one’s partner.

Maybe it’s just me, but it feels the closer I am with people, the more intense relationship dynamics are at this time. As more light flows in, and shadows are exposed, the more things come to the surface to be healed. Generally, people seem more sensitive, including myself, and sometimes that can create friction or resistance and some challenging circumstances to work through.

I have experienced on occasion, the use, or choice, of words being challenged or misunderstood. Everyone has a different understanding of the words or phrases we use. This can at times lead to misunderstanding. This is particularly true via social media. When we speak directly with each other, via phone or face to face, we hear the tone of voice or see into the others eyes and have a greater understanding of the heart, or intent behind the words used.

I am human. I have emotion. Sometimes things anger or frustrate me. Other times I feel great joy and passion for the beauty of life around me. Sometimes I feel pain and sadness. Other times I feel in a place of peace and calm. I often feel what others around me feel and sometimes get caught up in their energy. If I see a situation where it appears that someone is being treated unfairly or is misunderstood, I will often stand up for them. My truest nature is gentleness and kindness and I do my best to allow that to be what radiates out from me and what others see in me. More and more I am learning through all those different emotions, to feel love and gratitude for myself and allow that to fill me up and flow out from me.

The expression of these emotions is also part of my awakening. For most of my life I have suppressed my feelings. Having the courage to express myself, even if the person I am sharing my feelings with may not receive this well, is important. Their response or reaction may be a reflection of where they are at in their own process. I do my best to do this from a place of love. I am still figuring out who in my life it is safe to do that with and who it is not. It is most important that I speak my own truth. I strive to always live from my heart. My intentions are always good.

I believe the strongest relationships are those that will stand by you even when things get a little messy. They are the people that will be the most honest with you and will challenge you, and yet be there for you when you need it most, and love you no matter what. They are the people that you feel safest with to fully express all of who you are – your whole, messy, awakening self. That is the kind of person I strive to be. Those are the people I choose to surround myself with.

Some relationships will survive this wild ride we are on, and become deeper, richer and stronger. Some will need to be released to make way for others to come in. It is not for us to judge when that happens, just to trust the process and know that it is all for the highest and best.

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A New Song


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

The last few months, being back in Winnipeg after my summer in Sioux Narrows, Ontario, has brought about a flurry of activity.  I have been in a space of organizing, and creating the next phase of my life.  It has been challenging adjusting to the different energy of the city compared to the peace of the natural setting that was my home for three months.

I had a sense that this would be the case, so I pre-planned an outing to the sacred space of Bannock Point and the Petroforms.  It is a place that I continue to be drawn to and it was calling me back.  I have now been back to this sacred site a few times since my return to Winnipeg.

On this particular visit, early in September, I was introduced to the petroform of a creation story.  It is a depiction of a woman, Sky Woman, being lowered from the stars, pregnant with the first Red Nation male to walk this earth.  It was in a slightly out of the way place, away from the other petroforms and protected by the trees and terrain around it, and yet, it was meant to be found.  I placed an offering of tobacco and a coin, alongside other offerings left there, and said a brief prayer.

I headed to the Medicine Wheel, where I removed my sandals.  I walked slowly around the outside of the wheel.  At one entrance I noticed offerings of tobacco, coins and a variety of other objects.  Again, I said a prayer, offered tobacco and a coin and continued on to complete the walk around the circle.  I walked through one of the entrances to the Medicine Wheel, placed a circle of cedar around me, smudged with sage, sweetgrass and cedar and began a time of meditation. I placed my feet and hands directly on the rock beneath me.

As I do every time I come here, I knelt on the rock and held my forehead against it for a while, connecting my third eye with the energy of the earth.  I spent some time sending love and healing to the earth, holding my arms straight above me with my palms facing the sky.  Then continuing to hold my left arm up, I lowered my right arm with my right palm facing the earth.  I experienced a powerful wave of energy flowing through me.  I sent love and healing out as I repeated these motions in all four directions.

I took my time walking around the area, discovering petroforms I hadn’t seen before, enjoying the small discoveries of mushrooms, wild flowers, and berries.  I found a patch of wild blueberries and enjoyed a small snack.  I picked some kinnickinnik, bunch berries, rosehips and juniper berries.

I drove from this place to the waterfall, by the Womyn’s Gathering site.  I sounded my voice there as I had in the Spring.  This time, there was no need to yell or release any pain or anger.  All that came out was a sweet song from my heart; a gift to the water, the trees, and the elemental spirits of the forest, known as the Little People.

I have come a long way in a year, from experiencing the pain of having my heart cracked wide open a year ago and feeling deep grief, to learning to love myself, reclaiming my voice and finding my power.  I have awakened my passion and taken great leaps towards my soul’s calling.  I have come to a place of peace within.  This sacred place that keeps calling me home has also brought me home to myself.

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As Summer Nears Its End


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

By the time this is posted, I will be back in the Winnipeg for the fall.  It is hard to imagine leaving this place, now that I have been here almost three months.  It has been my refuge, my healing place.  This has been a time for me to focus on self-care so that I am better equipped to assist others with their healing.

Before I chose to come to here, I felt a need to create some space to give some of the work that I feel called to do some time to gel.  That has been a positive choice for me as there are all kinds of opportunities and blessings flowing my way.

I still have more healing to do, but I am stronger, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.  I feel more at peace with myself.  I have released anger, resentment and residual pain.  I still have people around me from time to time that attempt to pull me I to their drama, but I am getting better at removing myself from this fairly quickly.  I am learning to send them love and continue to hold a vibration of love and peace.  They show up to teach me.  I have met many women in the last few months that carry a lot of pain in their lives.  They are shifting, each at their own pace.  I send them love to hold them where ever they are at.

I have embraced connecting with the earth and water around me.  I am certain, throughout the fall and winter I will continue to be drawn to places outside the city where I can spend time connecting with nature.  I am less attached to the place that has been my home for the past seven years, or the city that has been my home for most of my life.

I have found great joy in walking barefoot in the grass, sending healing energy to the earth and receiving powerful healing energy from her in return.  I have had many opportunities to interact with the deer around me, watched turtles lay eggs, experienced an abundance of frogs and grasshoppers enjoying the yard around me, and watched dragonflies dance in the evening sky.  I have spent time embracing and celebrating the light of the full moon, watched in wonder as the night sky lit up with stars.  I have breathed in the fresh air, filled with the scent of pine and fir trees.  I have listened to the song of the wind in the trees and of crickets, frogs, loons, other birds, and water lapping against the shore.

I have replaced the fear of how my body reacts to the food I eat, with joy, gratitude, and pleasure.  It has given me a great deal of satisfaction to forage for wild edibles and add them to my diet.  I have more appreciation for and connection to where my food comes from.  I have learned what it feels like to really enjoy my food and understand how that impacts my body. I have observed the physical changes in my being as I have become more conscious of what I eat and of my physical activity.

To be clear, my focus has been on healing and returning to balance and not on my weight or appearance.  I love and accept myself as I am in whatever form or shape that is.  I have learned to see myself as a sacred woman and my body as the sacred vessel that holds my spirit.

What an amazing gift this summer has been!  I am deeply grateful.  It is soon coming to an end.  The weather is starting to shift.  The winds of change are blowing.  I surrender to the wind, to the flow of the river and to the voice of my soul calling me.  I have yet to understand the magnitude of what I have been preparing for or what lies ahead.

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My Voice


At Manitou Ahbee - Where Creator Sits - Photo by Leah Schroeder

At Manitou Ahbee – Where Creator Sits – Photo by Leah Schroeder

Yesterday morning, I woke up knowing that I was being called by Spirit to take a road trip to Bannock Point.  The day before, during a Shamanic Retreat, I was reminded of my voice.  I was told about a bird, with a red throat.  The bird’s throat was swelling up, ready to explode, maybe with anger or some other emotions that needed to be released.  I was suppressing my feelings.  I have received messages before that I need to free my voice.  It was important for me find a way to let this out in order for me to move forward.

On the way home from this retreat, it was suggested a primal scream out in the open somewhere would be helpful, like the potato field we were driving past.  I kept driving.  I knew this suggestion was right, but I needed to find my own way to do this.

Yesterday morning, I packed up my car and drove an hour and a half to the place I knew I needed to be.  As I made my way closer to this sacred place, I could feel emotion welling up in my throat. I made note of the forested areas or fields I passed along the way.  I could stop there.  That would be a good place, but I knew I needed to keep going.  I drove to the bridge that is the entrance to the path to Tie Creek.  It is also by the site where the women will gather in a little over a month.

I prayed that no one would be at the Petroform site.  I needed to be on my own.  I was thankful there were no cars parked there as I drove by to my final destination.  There was a truck parked at the end of the road.  Someone must have taken an ATV out to Tie Creek.

I walked to the gathering site just to make sure no one was there.  I stood by the river and let out some sound from my voice.  It wasn’t what I really needed and I knew that, so I walked to the bridge over the waterfall.  The water was moving fast with the Spring run-off.  I saw some eagles circling overhead.

Once on the bridge, I offered tobacco into the river and asked Spirit for assistance with what I came here to do.  I made a sound and then I yelled.  I did it again and again, louder and longer each time, until my throat was fully open.  Tears ran down my face.  I stood there for a while, crying.  I thanked Spirit and the river and offered tobacco again.

I began to tone my heart song, louder and more open than ever before.  I freed that lump in my throat.  I freed my voice.  As this song was flowing out from my heart, I was aware of another voice singing along with mine.  I offered tobacco again.

I stood there for a little while and walked to the other side of the bridge where the water was calm.  When I was ready to leave, I thanked Spirit, walked back to my car and drove to the Petroform site.  No one else was there.  No human that is.  I was not alone.

I left an offering of tobacco on the rock entering into the site, where other offerings have been placed, asking for guidance and protection for my time there.  I walked towards the medicine wheel.  I was drawn to another rock on my way there.  I rested my hands to feel its energy and pray for guidance before carrying on.  A previous visitor had left behind an offering of a bracelet there.

When I entered the medicine wheel, I left an offering of tobacco again.  I spread some cedar on the rock around me.  I prepared a smudge of sweetgrass and sage.  I lit a candle.  I wrote out a list of all the emotions, beliefs and resentments I wanted to release in that moment.  I set them on fire with the light of the candle with a prayer to my guides and angels to carry them away.  The ashes of the paper spread apart and were carried off in different directions by the wind.

I sat there, on the open rock around the medicine wheel, with my bare feet receiving the energy of the granite they were resting on. I felt peace, calm and freedom.  Once again I noticed some large birds, likely eagles, circling above so high you could barely see them.  Even though it was daytime, the moon showed herself to me.  I felt loved and cared for knowing in that moment I was fully supported.  I have reclaimed my voice.

Spring at Dorothy Lake, Whiteshell Provincial Park - Photo by Leah Schroeder

Spring at Dorothy Lake, Whiteshell Provincial Park – Photo by Leah Schroeder

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Entering into the Year of the Horse


Image courtesy of Tina Phillips / FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Image courtesy of Tina Phillips / FreeDigitalPhotos.net

January 31st, 2014.  Today is my 48th birthday.  It is also Chinese New Year – The Year of the Horse.  This is my year.  I have just been through and continue to be in the midst of great change.  What adventures lie ahead?

I am grateful for all the lessons of the past year to year and a half, and yet I am glad to be moving into a different phase of life.  I am not sure yet if a more peaceful time of stability is on the horizon, but I trust that whatever comes, I will be ready for it and it will be something even better than I can imagine.

This last month has been a time of sticking close to home and doing a lot of self-care.   It feels like it was something that has been imposed upon me and yet a friend suggested that maybe it was simply a challenge to spend some time looking after myself for a change.  With a cold virus that decided to stick around for a few weeks and brought me to ring in the New Year spending a few days on my couch, and a major skin irritation that my doctor believes to be eczema caused by some allergic reaction – to what I have yet to determine, I have certainly been challenged.

I have had the opportunity to explore various natural remedies for the cold virus, all of which helped to varying degrees.  Eventually the virus moved on.  While my immune system was busy with addressing the cold, the skin irritation developed on my upper body.  Some things I tried brought minor relief, while others, created more irritation. I spent some time doing Reiki and ThetaHealing® on myself.   I found some relief taking baths with a tea made with cedar, Labrador leaf and Wekay root (also known as Rat Root or Calamus Root) added to the water along with Himalayan salt, some aluminum free baking soda, and a few of my favourite essential oils.  It helped calm the irritation and was a good time for some meditation. In the end, some medical intervention was needed to give me enough relief to function more normally.

This process has certainly brought me to be aware of my physical self.  I have also explored the question, “What is it, on a subconscious level that is triggering these health challenges?”  It has provided a bit of a transitional break as I have let go of various aspects of my life and am shifting into the new.  Now, as I continue to heal, my focus has shifted more onto where do I go from here?

Last night, I chose to bring in this new phase of life – the evening of the Super New Moon and Chinese New Year’s Eve, attending a meditation, which I often do on Thursday evenings.  During the drumming part of the meditation, I chose to drift into a journey to visit with my power animals.  I received some helpful guidance during that time.  For the first time, I detached from the drumming and it took on a life of its own.  The intensity of the drumming in the room brought me back as this part of the meditation came to an end.

The next part of the meditation was the toning.  During this time, I felt a different energy around me.  It almost felt like someone was brushing from my head to my shoulders, my back and my arms with feathers.  Actually, it felt more like wings – of an angel.

This time was followed by playing of Crystal bowls and then silent meditation.  While the bowls were being played, there were some strange sounds.  A few people commented on this after.  To me it almost sounded like a few times someone was scratching some metal or something sharp against the bowls.  It was an uncomfortable sound.   There were other gifts from Spirit presented throughout the evening.

Every meditation is different and I leave this sacred space with different feelings.  Sometimes I leave with a feeling of incredible joy.  Other times something else has shifted within me creating a release of tears as I make my way home.  This was my experience last night.

The tears carried into this morning.  What a way to start my birthday!  It may be a combination of the shifting energy of this moment in time and within me, coupled with some hormonal shifts.  I was experiencing a moment of feeling somewhat disconnected from everyone in my life and feeling unsure of myself and the path I am on.

Spending time in a healing bath and a lot of time in meditation today – along with a few phone calls from people close to me has brought me back into feeling connected again.

I am stepping into the unknown.  It is important for me at this time to be open to the teachers that present themselves, but more importantly to really begin to trust, honour and pay attention to the voice within me.  I am shedding the old skin, the old story of who I am.   I have ideas of what the road ahead might look like, but I am honestly still in the process of awakening the gifts within me and finding my soul’s calling.  I am still finding my voice and haven’t quite discovered how best to use it.  Is it through writing?  Is it through healing work or teaching others?  Is there something else waiting to emerge?

I listened to a Webinar recently that talked about bringing together all the parts of your life that bring you joy and forming it into a business that is uniquely you and expresses the essence of who you are.  It is an intriguing concept that is still swimming around in my head and my heart and I am sure will for some time until it jells into something that fits for me.

And so a new year of my life begins.  Although there is uncertainty, I enter it in peace.  I move forward with anticipation of what great treasures I will discover along the way.

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Faith


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

As I play in this in between space in my life, I pay attention to my thoughts and feelings and responses to the words and actions of others.  I am learning to trust my inner knowing.  I trust that wherever this path is leading me is in the highest and best. 

There are moments when I might question this and doubt creeps in.  I have been paying attention to what triggers those feelings.  There are moments when I feel I am in the middle of this pile of crap and it can be challenging to see beyond that.  There are moments when people ask questions of me about where I am at, or about choices I am making right now.  I become aware that the fear that I am feeling, is more a projection of their fears than my own, or possibly an indication of where my sense of self-worth is at the time.  There are moments when the words and actions of others around me don’t align with what I believe in my heart to be true.

Just as I write this I am listening to an interview with Dr. Wayne Dyer and he makes a comment about shifting the focus to my purpose, listening and getting the ego out of the way.  Lessons like this show up at the most perfect moments.  Every day I learn something new.  I learn to release the fears, doubts and reteach myself that I am worthy.  Every day I have experiences that teach me about faith.

Earlier this week, I had some errands to do around the city.  One stop was to a government office downtown.  I parked my vehicle in an underground parking lot.  After my business there was finished, I stopped at a pay station to pay the parking fee.  I had to put down my purse, travel mug, and a black folder that contained some personal confidential documents.  When I finished paying, I gathered up my things and proceeded to my car.  I had a gut feeling that I might have been forgetting something, but thought I had everything in my hands so I didn’t go back to the pay station to check.

My other errands were in other areas of the city.  When I got to what I thought was my last stop before going home, halfway across the city from the first stop, I realized the passenger door of my car was not locked.  Then I noticed that my black folder was not in my vehicle. At first I thought someone must have taken it from my car at my last stop, but then I retraced my steps in my mind to figure out where I might have left it.  I realized I must have left it by the pay station.  I contacted the building security.  As I was calling, the customer service office for that building called me to let me know the folder had been brought to them and was being held in their lost and found.  This was a lesson for me to trust my inner knowing.

I watched a beautiful movie this week called “Dragonfly”.  I have a strong connection to dragonflies as you may well know, so this film was suggested to my awhile back.  The message I received from this movie, again is to trust my inner knowing and to have faith.

Maybe, what I believe in my heart to be true will be something even better than what I can imagine at this point of my life.  I am continually being reminded to let go of attachment to a particular outcome.  I recently received a deck of Angel Cards.  For the last few days I have been repeatedly pulling a card that reads “Patience.  Your dreams are blooming more rapidly than you realize.  Still, they need nurturing and patience.”  It is helpful to be continually reminded of this because I do forget sometimes.

I have a strong sense that I am being supported and guided along this road I am travelling.   I am learning that everything serves some purpose even though it might not feel like it in the moment.  Things are being released and transformed to allow me to align more with my soul’s path.  When I allow space for meditation and to just be in the stillness of the moment, I find peace and love and a deep connection to All That Is, and a knowing that I am exactly where I am meant to be in this moment.   In Love and Gratitude, Namaste.

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