Answering the Call


– Photo by Leah Schroeder

All it takes is one action of following an intuitive nudge to entirely shift one’s life.  Sometimes it is a thought that enters into one’s consciousness.  Other times it might be a suggestion or idea presented by someone else, planting the seed of change.

A few years ago, that seed was planted for me.  At the time, the suggestion was not a direction I was open to.  A year and a half ago, something shifted in my life and the suggestion was made again.  This time I was ready for it.  The past year and a half I have been taking step by step actions in preparation for a major life change.

In a few days, I will be getting in my vehicle, leaving my life behind in Winnipeg, the city of my birth, and moving to the mountains, to an area I have never visited.  I have shed many of my possessions, keeping those items that have the most meaning for me at this time, or what I will use regularly, keeping in mind that I wish to create a life where I can build a tiny home or small cabin, garden and create what I need to sustain myself.  It has been a very freeing process to let go of stuff.

I have approached this process from a place of honouring the connections I have in the city I grew up in, and the sacred places that have hugely impacted my life. I have brought closure to different parts of my life and/or relationships that had unfinished or unresolved aspects to them.  There has been the opportunity for healing for both myself and others in this process.  By the time I leave, there will be nothing left unsaid or unfinished.

A beautiful thing I have observed as I began the process of transitioning out of my businesses and life in Winnipeg, is seeing that leaving has created space for others to flourish and step up to honouring their gifts and they accept the call to carry on the work I was doing here.  That has applies to my healing practise, bookkeeping and administrative work, and family roles.  It gives me a great deal of joy to see how other people are benefiting from this change.

When the idea first came to me, I thought I would be waiting until my mother had passed on.  There came a point where I realized I couldn’t keep putting my life on hold, waiting for that time.  She and I have had somewhat of a co-dependent relationship for the past several years, especially since my dad transitioned.  As much as I wanted for her to be the one to let go first, it needed to be me.  It has been important for me to make the tough choices to move towards what is calling me.  There are a few people in my life that are hard to leave, but I know with every fibre of my being that this is what I need to do.  I trust that this and whatever happens for everyone connected to me in some way, that this is in the highest and best for all.  It isn’t just about me or what I want.

Often people ask me what I will be doing when I get to that area in the mountains, or where specifically I will be.  I don’t have a lot of answers.  I know I will be essentially homeless next week.  I will stay with my younger sister for a week.  I will spend a couple of months on a few different organic farms, gardening and helping out with whatever is needed, in exchange for room and board.  This will be an opportunity to create some space to allow the new to enter in and to connect with the land that will become my home. I will continue on with the healing work that I do and likely the bookkeeping or administrative work in some capacity.  I know my role as a lightworker will expand and change and that more will be revealed to me when I get to the area I am heading to.

I am at peace.  I feel deep gratitude for this place that has been my home for the past 52 years and for all the people that have come and gone from my life that have shaped my journey, as well as all of those who are currently in my life that have encouraged and supported this move.  I feel deeply blessed.  I am excited to explore the unknown and discover what lies ahead. I am looking forward to meeting all the souls that will be there with me through this next phase of life.

It has been interesting observing people I connect with before I go.  I have expressed to a few people that it is almost as if I am dying. I am honoured to have been able to touch so many people in such a way that they would feel that.  My life has equally been touched by each one of them.

There is a saying that has followed me since I was a teenager that I am reminded of as I get ready to leave.  “When you come to the edge of all the light you know, and step out into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing you will have something solid to land on, or you will learn to fly.”  It is time for me to fly.

Blessings to each of you, who have touched my life, and have been a part of shaping who I am.  I have so much love and gratitude in my heart for each one of you.

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Preparing for Great Change


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Photo by Leah Schroeder

These words have been brewing for a bit waiting to be released in written form.  I don’t know what will emerge as I open myself to allow my thoughts to flow.

I mentioned a few months ago, feeling like I am in a process of birthing.  I have more clarity surrounding that process now. There is a big wave of change coming and I am preparing.   I could say it will be and already is a significantly defining moment in my life. I feel that within every fibre of my being.

I have spent the past month and a half engaged in some deep self-healing/transformation and have more to come in the next few months.  I have been having visions of important actions for me to take over the next while to bring closure to this phase of my life so I can move forward freely into the next.  I am fully committed to this process, not holding back any longer.  I am no longer waiting for certain things in my life to line up, or other people to let go, so that I can go forward.

There has been some grieving through this process as I acknowledged the transition to Spirit one of my mentors, a woman who has had a great impact on my life.  She will continue to have a presence and significance in my life as I move forward.  There are other forms of grief being processed within me as I release attachment to roles I have played in order to make space for the new.

In the last few weeks there have been a few events happening around me that have been in my thoughts.  I am not sure exactly how it fits into my process at the moment, but I have been able to observe without attachment.  Something that would have triggered me in the past brought to my awareness compassion and empathy.  I was very aware that I was no longer angry and wasn’t even interested in going there when others attempted to pull me into it.

When I began to feel the deep pain of the situation, instead of reacting to it, I chose to spend some time in meditation, sending love to all those involved.  It brought to my awareness that the most important thing for me to do in that moment was to shift my energy.  Doing so brought me a sense of peace.  Everyone involved had lessons to learn, including me as the observer.  I am grateful for this new level of awareness.  I feel somehow this is an important part of the process I am in the middle of.

I have an awareness that the karmic lessons of my life are showing themselves once more to challenge me to move through them.  Instead of feeling powerless, I embrace my power and create space for my light to shine through.  I embrace the expression of the Divine that I am.  I am shedding the old layers I have carried and blossoming into a new way of being and living.

As I write this, I bring my awareness to the beauty of life that surrounds me: the plants that I have been gifted to care for lined up in front of my window, all the trees out my front window that create a magnificent canopy over the road and house along the street that I live on.  I enjoyed an afternoon at the lake a few days ago, feeling surrounded by the coolness of the water and aware of the majestic sky carrying amazing cloud formations.  Life is really magical when I observe what surrounds me.

Every moment I experience is an incredible blessing.  I am grateful for the lessons, for the continuous challenge to shift my consciousness, raise my vibration, and support others as they do the same.  I am grateful to be at a place in my life where I can step fully into my divine calling, completely surrendering and trusting the road will reveal itself as I continue to take steps forward, and knowing that I am fully surrounded and supported in the process.

Blessings to you.

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Honouring My Sisters – Reflecting On Where I Am Five Years Later


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Photo by Leah Schroeder

Five years have flown by since this blog first began.  So many things have shifted over that time for each of us on a personal level and also for the collective.  There have been many times over the past five years when I felt I was in a birthing canal, with a new or more authentic version of myself emerging.

Once again I am in the space of birthing.  I am listening to my soul’s calling, diving deeper.  The last few months have been challenging and uncomfortable, and yet, I keep putting one foot in front of the other.  I am cocooning, distancing myself from what others want from me, slowly breaking the chains of old contracts and the old self, at times gasping for air and fighting for my freedom.  And then, I let go and allow myself to move in flow with the waves of intense energy flooding in.  I am learning to follow the song of my inner voice. I am shedding the old paradigm, sitting in the in-between space as the metamorphosis takes place until I am ready to emerge on the other side, completely transformed.

I have glimpses of what is coming and where I will go, but the picture is not fully formed yet.  I am okay with not knowing what that looks like.  I surrender to the river that is carrying me forward.  I trust this river to hold me, to support me, and to lead me closer to the essence of who I am and to the core of my divine calling.

I am blessed to have so many amazing women in my life.  There are those who have been in my life for many years.  There are a few that have come into my life in the last short while to assist me with this shift I am in the midst of,  and for us to support each other and share in work we are being called to do.  They are my soul sisters, my mothers, the midwives supporting me through this birthing process I am moving through, my teachers, and those I have had the gift of passing on what I have learned. I, in turn, have the opportunity to serve in the same way for them.

I send love and gratitude to you, for your presence here, and your place in my life, as we continue to lift each other up, and together raise the vibration of the planet and shift the consciousness of humanity. Blessings to you. Namaste.

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Into The Stillness


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Photo by Leah Schroeder

I dive deep into this quiet place, the void, the nothingness and infinite possibilities all at the same time.

I sit in this stillness, allowing myself to grieve lives lost, relationships that have fallen away as I have opened up to allow my light to shine.

In this space in time I shed old energy.  I observe my reactions and emotions to events around me.

I sit in stillness, listening for the insights to guide me beyond this present moment.

In this moment, I recognize I have temporarily moved into the shadows.  It feels like a rubber band being pulled back, so that once released will fly forward with tremendous force and momentum.

I sit in stillness, being, breathing, feeling the peace in this space in time.

I am the bud of a flower.  I am growing, shifting, and changing, ready for the perfect moment to explode open with brilliant colour, light and beauty.

I sit in stillness, discovering this spiritual being within this physical body, this being that is so much bigger and brighter than the physical container that holds it.

I am love, contained for the moment within this vessel, allowing space to refill so there is more to give to others as I begin to overflow again.

I sit in stillness, appreciating this gift.  At first I resisted this experience, trying to figure out the why of it all.  I have shifted into acceptance and peace.

I have surrendered to the flow of life.

I sit in stillness, embracing the beauty of this moment with love and gratitude.

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Relationships In This Time Of Awakening


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

Relationships at the best of times can have their challenges to navigate whether they are with family, friends or the more intimate relationship with one’s partner.

Maybe it’s just me, but it feels the closer I am with people, the more intense relationship dynamics are at this time. As more light flows in, and shadows are exposed, the more things come to the surface to be healed. Generally, people seem more sensitive, including myself, and sometimes that can create friction or resistance and some challenging circumstances to work through.

I have experienced on occasion, the use, or choice, of words being challenged or misunderstood. Everyone has a different understanding of the words or phrases we use. This can at times lead to misunderstanding. This is particularly true via social media. When we speak directly with each other, via phone or face to face, we hear the tone of voice or see into the others eyes and have a greater understanding of the heart, or intent behind the words used.

I am human. I have emotion. Sometimes things anger or frustrate me. Other times I feel great joy and passion for the beauty of life around me. Sometimes I feel pain and sadness. Other times I feel in a place of peace and calm. I often feel what others around me feel and sometimes get caught up in their energy. If I see a situation where it appears that someone is being treated unfairly or is misunderstood, I will often stand up for them. My truest nature is gentleness and kindness and I do my best to allow that to be what radiates out from me and what others see in me. More and more I am learning through all those different emotions, to feel love and gratitude for myself and allow that to fill me up and flow out from me.

The expression of these emotions is also part of my awakening. For most of my life I have suppressed my feelings. Having the courage to express myself, even if the person I am sharing my feelings with may not receive this well, is important. Their response or reaction may be a reflection of where they are at in their own process. I do my best to do this from a place of love. I am still figuring out who in my life it is safe to do that with and who it is not. It is most important that I speak my own truth. I strive to always live from my heart. My intentions are always good.

I believe the strongest relationships are those that will stand by you even when things get a little messy. They are the people that will be the most honest with you and will challenge you, and yet be there for you when you need it most, and love you no matter what. They are the people that you feel safest with to fully express all of who you are – your whole, messy, awakening self. That is the kind of person I strive to be. Those are the people I choose to surround myself with.

Some relationships will survive this wild ride we are on, and become deeper, richer and stronger. Some will need to be released to make way for others to come in. It is not for us to judge when that happens, just to trust the process and know that it is all for the highest and best.

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Rise of The Sacred Feminine – The Lodge of Everlasting Life


The Women’s Lodge – Photo by Leah Schroeder

One of the founders of The Mother Earth Gathering Womyn of All Nations received instruction through a dream three years ago, to build The Lodge of Everlasting Life. This was a gift from the ancestor whose remains were found and re-buried in the area near Seven Sisters Falls.  It was a gift for the women.  She was the same ancestor who guided the founders to bring together the women to this area.  One of the elders taught her this lodge was a very powerful ancient lodge that was used for ceremony and fasting. It was a lodge that wasn’t being used anymore.

Over this past year we talked about it often. It was important to build it for this year’s gathering.  When I learned more about this lodge in the weeks preceding the gathering, bringing it back became even more significant.

A month before this gathering, I fasted at our gathering site for a few days. During my time there I thought about this lodge. It felt like this was a task for the women to build together. It was something we were reclaiming.

A few days before the gathering, a small group of us were called together to build this lodge. I set out early in the morning with two other women to begin gathering saplings for this project. It seemed appropriate and powerful to have three women begin this process – a divine number.

When we arrived at the gathering site, we looked around for appropriate trees. We were looking for young Ash, Birch, or Tamarack. On the west side of the site is a large outcropping of granite rock. On the north side is a river. On the east side is a wooded area and to the south is a dried up marsh area with a narrow stream running through it that flows into the river. It was through this area we decided to go in search of the trees we needed. On the other side of this marshy area was another wooded area where we were guided to go.

We made our way through the marsh, jumped over the stream and headed into the woods. We found a grove of what we thought were Ash, but later found out were Alder. We were told they carried Unicorn Energy, which somehow felt fitting for reclaiming this ancient lodge that had been lost. An eagle circled over us as we arrived at this spot, letting us know this was where we needed to be. One of the women asked the young trees, which ones wanted to be part of our lodge. For each one that said yes, tobacco was offered and we began the work of chopping down these saplings.

We were told we would need about fifty-six saplings to form the lodge. In the first hour and a half, the three of us had fifteen ready. We cleaned off most of the branches to make it easier to haul them back to the gathering site. I carried five saplings, dragging them out of the woods, through the long, dried grass of the marsh, over the stream, through more marsh until I arrived back at the gathering site. As I dragged these saplings I was aware of the power and significance of what I was a part of. It felt like I was making a sacred pilgrimage.

As we arrived at the site with the first set of saplings, more help arrived. We sent them off to get the next batch of saplings. The person providing the teachings found some taller Ash in the wood area to the east of the gathering site, and was very quickly able to harvest enough to make up what was needed for the lodge.

More people arrived to help. After lunch we walked around the site to find the perfect spot to build the lodge and began the process of marking out the area, digging holes for the poles and assembling the lodge. The process was a beautiful ceremony. There were both women and men helping and supporting each other through this process.

We received some very basic teachings of the lodge as we built it. We were told this year was about learning to build it. Every year it will get bigger and we will learn more as we go. Once the frame of the lodge was complete, our work for the day was done. The energy inside this space was warm, comforting and strong. Some of the leaves were left on the tops of the trees that were used. The lodge frame was simple, but beautiful with the added greenery. It felt alive which acknowledged its connection with the Earth.

Two days later people began to arrive to set up for this year’s Mother Earth Gathering Womyn of All Nations. I was asked to lead a pipe and water ceremony on the first morning of the gathering, inside the Women’s Lodge, as we referred to it, to pray for blessing for this lodge and the gathering and open and prepare it for use during our time together. It was both humbling and an honour to be asked to take care of this task.

When I woke up that morning, mist rising from the river, the horizon just turning pink, I didn’t see anyone else stirring yet. I had no drum to call people together, so I entered the Women’s Lodge on my own. I prepared a smudge and walked with it around the outside of the lodge and then around the inside. I sat in the centre of the lodge and prayed the strongest prayers I have ever prayed and felt in my heart as I held my pipe. I prayed prayers of gratitude for this lodge and to Spirit for being there to guide and support us. I prayed for guidance and for deep healing for this gathering. I smoked my pipe and continued with praying for blessings and healing for the water. I was joined by one other woman during this time.

A few hours later I asked one woman to help me begin to dig a fire pit in the centre of the lodge. We worked together for a short while. Then one of the men helped me with digging it out the rest of the way. As we were working on this, another woman stood at the entrance of the lodge and began to play some spiritually guided music on her wooden flute. She played in the four directions, both inside and outside the lodge as we continued to work. This was another powerful, sacred moment.

Tarps were added around the outside of the lodge, with the centre open for the fire.

That evening, the lodge was filled with people as we shared in a powerful full moon ceremony. At one point, before it got dark, we were gifted with a rainbow that could be partially seen through the opening in the top of the lodge.

We sang and drummed and shared and let go of a lot of inner stuff that needed to be released and healed that night. We did that inside the protective, loving warmth of the Women’s Lodge, connected with our Mother Earth and receiving the loving energy of Grandmother Moon. It was a sacred experience completely guided by Spirit. It was beautiful. It was powerful.

This beautiful ancient lodge, a powerful symbol of the Sacred Feminine has been re birthed and reclaimed. May the loving energy of this action radiate out to empower women around the world to embrace the power of their own sacredness. This is where we start to heal and bring humanity back into balance with the Earth.

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Boundaries


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

A few conversations I have had in the last week or so challenged me to reflect on the whole idea of boundaries and how we view life happening around us.  We create boundaries to define property, or ownership.  This is mine and that’s yours.  This is my country, that’s your country; my yard, your yard, me, you.  It is an illusion of separation.

After a meditation recently, we talked about how when tragic events happen in the world, whether on a small or large scale, we have an opportunity to shift the energy of the experience by responding with love and compassion. Events in the world like 9/11 or major natural disasters like the 2010 earthquake in Haiti, are large scale examples where the response to these events have raised the energetic vibration of the entire planet.   I began to explore this concept on a more personal level.

Prior to this, a good friend expressed concern over a particular situation, and the potential for me to be hurt by another’s actions.  I am grateful for her care and the opportunity it gave me to reflect on this subject.  I know she will be reading this so I write this with the utmost love and respect.

Over the past few months I have had the opportunity to participate in a few Sacred Womyn Workshops.  I talk about the energy of our words and the impact the energy we hold in our body affects us and the world around us.  I talk about learning to live from a place of love and peace and the power of that to heal ourselves and the earth.

When I consider what it means to truly live from a place of love, with love there are no boundaries.  There is no separation.  Everything is a reflection of something within me, including whatever dynamics I experience with another person.  So, I can choose to put up walls to protect myself from those dynamics or I can hold an energy of love and peace.  My partner and I often talk about how in any given moment we can choose to respond to life with fear or love.

This doesn’t mean I should or need to engage in a relationship with someone that has harmed me in some way.  I can choose not to.  If I am holding that energy of love, I will attract situations and people that resonate on the same vibration I am at.  If what I have attracted doesn’t appear to be on the same vibration, is it possible I have attracted it because it is a reflection of some aspect of myself?  If I look at it as a shadow side of myself, I can bring it into harmony with other aspects of my being by shedding light on it and bringing in an energy of love and compassion.

At the same time, if an opportunity presents itself where I can engage in dialogue with someone that may have “hurt” me in some way or treated me badly or has differing beliefs from myself, I can choose to connect with this person from a place of love.  This creates a possibility for transformation for both me and the other person.

I have done a lot of work to break down the walls around my heart.  I am still a work in progress.  Being love and living from that place, requires me to keep my heart open.  It requires me to be vulnerable.  It requires me to be awake to possibility, to risk and to have faith.

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