Honouring My Sisters – Reflecting On Where I Am Five Years Later


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Photo by Leah Schroeder

Five years have flown by since this blog first began.  So many things have shifted over that time for each of us on a personal level and also for the collective.  There have been many times over the past five years when I felt I was in a birthing canal, with a new or more authentic version of myself emerging.

Once again I am in the space of birthing.  I am listening to my soul’s calling, diving deeper.  The last few months have been challenging and uncomfortable, and yet, I keep putting one foot in front of the other.  I am cocooning, distancing myself from what others want from me, slowly breaking the chains of old contracts and the old self, at times gasping for air and fighting for my freedom.  And then, I let go and allow myself to move in flow with the waves of intense energy flooding in.  I am learning to follow the song of my inner voice. I am shedding the old paradigm, sitting in the in-between space as the metamorphosis takes place until I am ready to emerge on the other side, completely transformed.

I have glimpses of what is coming and where I will go, but the picture is not fully formed yet.  I am okay with not knowing what that looks like.  I surrender to the river that is carrying me forward.  I trust this river to hold me, to support me, and to lead me closer to the essence of who I am and to the core of my divine calling.

I am blessed to have so many amazing women in my life.  There are those who have been in my life for many years.  There are a few that have come into my life in the last short while to assist me with this shift I am in the midst of,  and for us to support each other and share in work we are being called to do.  They are my soul sisters, my mothers, the midwives supporting me through this birthing process I am moving through, my teachers, and those I have had the gift of passing on what I have learned. I, in turn, have the opportunity to serve in the same way for them.

I send love and gratitude to you, for your presence here, and your place in my life, as we continue to lift each other up, and together raise the vibration of the planet and shift the consciousness of humanity. Blessings to you. Namaste.

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Into The Stillness


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I dive deep into this quiet place, the void, the nothingness and infinite possibilities all at the same time.

I sit in this stillness, allowing myself to grieve lives lost, relationships that have fallen away as I have opened up to allow my light to shine.

In this space in time I shed old energy.  I observe my reactions and emotions to events around me.

I sit in stillness, listening for the insights to guide me beyond this present moment.

In this moment, I recognize I have temporarily moved into the shadows.  It feels like a rubber band being pulled back, so that once released will fly forward with tremendous force and momentum.

I sit in stillness, being, breathing, feeling the peace in this space in time.

I am the bud of a flower.  I am growing, shifting, and changing, ready for the perfect moment to explode open with brilliant colour, light and beauty.

I sit in stillness, discovering this spiritual being within this physical body, this being that is so much bigger and brighter than the physical container that holds it.

I am love, contained for the moment within this vessel, allowing space to refill so there is more to give to others as I begin to overflow again.

I sit in stillness, appreciating this gift.  At first I resisted this experience, trying to figure out the why of it all.  I have shifted into acceptance and peace.

I have surrendered to the flow of life.

I sit in stillness, embracing the beauty of this moment with love and gratitude.

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Relationships In This Time Of Awakening


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Photo by Leah Schroeder

Relationships at the best of times can have their challenges to navigate whether they are with family, friends or the more intimate relationship with one’s partner.

Maybe it’s just me, but it feels the closer I am with people, the more intense relationship dynamics are at this time. As more light flows in, and shadows are exposed, the more things come to the surface to be healed. Generally, people seem more sensitive, including myself, and sometimes that can create friction or resistance and some challenging circumstances to work through.

I have experienced on occasion, the use, or choice, of words being challenged or misunderstood. Everyone has a different understanding of the words or phrases we use. This can at times lead to misunderstanding. This is particularly true via social media. When we speak directly with each other, via phone or face to face, we hear the tone of voice or see into the others eyes and have a greater understanding of the heart, or intent behind the words used.

I am human. I have emotion. Sometimes things anger or frustrate me. Other times I feel great joy and passion for the beauty of life around me. Sometimes I feel pain and sadness. Other times I feel in a place of peace and calm. I often feel what others around me feel and sometimes get caught up in their energy. If I see a situation where it appears that someone is being treated unfairly or is misunderstood, I will often stand up for them. My truest nature is gentleness and kindness and I do my best to allow that to be what radiates out from me and what others see in me. More and more I am learning through all those different emotions, to feel love and gratitude for myself and allow that to fill me up and flow out from me.

The expression of these emotions is also part of my awakening. For most of my life I have suppressed my feelings. Having the courage to express myself, even if the person I am sharing my feelings with may not receive this well, is important. Their response or reaction may be a reflection of where they are at in their own process. I do my best to do this from a place of love. I am still figuring out who in my life it is safe to do that with and who it is not. It is most important that I speak my own truth. I strive to always live from my heart. My intentions are always good.

I believe the strongest relationships are those that will stand by you even when things get a little messy. They are the people that will be the most honest with you and will challenge you, and yet be there for you when you need it most, and love you no matter what. They are the people that you feel safest with to fully express all of who you are – your whole, messy, awakening self. That is the kind of person I strive to be. Those are the people I choose to surround myself with.

Some relationships will survive this wild ride we are on, and become deeper, richer and stronger. Some will need to be released to make way for others to come in. It is not for us to judge when that happens, just to trust the process and know that it is all for the highest and best.

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Boundaries


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Photo by Leah Schroeder

A few conversations I have had in the last week or so challenged me to reflect on the whole idea of boundaries and how we view life happening around us.  We create boundaries to define property, or ownership.  This is mine and that’s yours.  This is my country, that’s your country; my yard, your yard, me, you.  It is an illusion of separation.

After a meditation recently, we talked about how when tragic events happen in the world, whether on a small or large scale, we have an opportunity to shift the energy of the experience by responding with love and compassion. Events in the world like 9/11 or major natural disasters like the 2010 earthquake in Haiti, are large scale examples where the response to these events have raised the energetic vibration of the entire planet.   I began to explore this concept on a more personal level.

Prior to this, a good friend expressed concern over a particular situation, and the potential for me to be hurt by another’s actions.  I am grateful for her care and the opportunity it gave me to reflect on this subject.  I know she will be reading this so I write this with the utmost love and respect.

Over the past few months I have had the opportunity to participate in a few Sacred Womyn Workshops.  I talk about the energy of our words and the impact the energy we hold in our body affects us and the world around us.  I talk about learning to live from a place of love and peace and the power of that to heal ourselves and the earth.

When I consider what it means to truly live from a place of love, with love there are no boundaries.  There is no separation.  Everything is a reflection of something within me, including whatever dynamics I experience with another person.  So, I can choose to put up walls to protect myself from those dynamics or I can hold an energy of love and peace.  My partner and I often talk about how in any given moment we can choose to respond to life with fear or love.

This doesn’t mean I should or need to engage in a relationship with someone that has harmed me in some way.  I can choose not to.  If I am holding that energy of love, I will attract situations and people that resonate on the same vibration I am at.  If what I have attracted doesn’t appear to be on the same vibration, is it possible I have attracted it because it is a reflection of some aspect of myself?  If I look at it as a shadow side of myself, I can bring it into harmony with other aspects of my being by shedding light on it and bringing in an energy of love and compassion.

At the same time, if an opportunity presents itself where I can engage in dialogue with someone that may have “hurt” me in some way or treated me badly or has differing beliefs from myself, I can choose to connect with this person from a place of love.  This creates a possibility for transformation for both me and the other person.

I have done a lot of work to break down the walls around my heart.  I am still a work in progress.  Being love and living from that place, requires me to keep my heart open.  It requires me to be vulnerable.  It requires me to be awake to possibility, to risk and to have faith.

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A Circle of Love


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Early one Sunday morning, late in October, I drove out to the Whiteshell to embark on another sacred journey to Tie Creek.  I had a long day of celebrating my brother’s wedding the day before and only had four hours sleep that night.  It didn’t seem to matter.

There were seven of us called to take this journey together.  There was something powerful about this trek that drew us together.  A divine number: seven.  There were four men and three women.  The two hour walk there was filled with inspired conversation and awareness of the beauty that surrounded us.  For me, this time was also an opportunity to meet and get to know a man that has found a special place in my life and my heart.

There is a noticeable shift in the energy when you reach the sounding stone and walk past it through the gateway.  It is almost a feeling of having been transported to another planet or back thousands of years.  One feels a strong sense of peace in this place.  The landscape is different.  We walk on some of the oldest rock on the planet.  It is an ancient, sacred place.

Once inside the fenced area around Tie Creek, we all spread out, exploring the area.  I always take my shoes off and walk barefoot on the rock.  I did this even though it was a cooler day.  I walked to a place I visit and spend time in meditation each time I am there.  I left an offering for the Little People in a spot where others have left shiny objects, coins or other offering items.  The Little People are elemental spirits of the forests.  I can feel them around and hear them moving through the brush when I am there.

We explored some of the petroforms in the area.  One of the main petroforms has three long lines of rock.  It almost looks like a runway.  From the top looking down, my friend Diane explained, the line on the left represented the spiritual path.  The line on the right, which was not a straight line, represented the material path.  The line in the middle, which was shorter, represented living life in between the spiritual and the material world.  There was a larger boulder halfway down on the side of the material path.  There were other lines of rocks expanding beyond this.  Diane and her partner felt this boulder represents a crossroads where one must choose which path they are going to follow.  They had never seen this petroform before but knew some of the teachings behind it.  It was really powerful to gain this new understanding.

After wandering around for a while we all spread out and found places to spend a bit of time in meditation.  I moved around to a few places.  In some areas I felt a strong connection with my heart.  I came to one spot where there was a bit of a dip in the rock and sat down there, in front of a tree.  As I sat there in meditation, I felt some hands on my head, first on the back of my head at the top of my spine and then on my crown.  I felt like I was receiving some sort of attunement.

After a while we came back together for a pipe ceremony.  Three of us smoked our pipes and one was shared with the rest of the group.  A few in the group received their spirit names.  It was a powerful experience for all of us.

We were guided to do a group meditation before departing.  We moved to higher ground.  For the first part of the meditation, we asked the men to stand in the four directions, surrounding the women.  As we began, I raised my arms to acknowledge that I am one with the divine universe and open to receive all the love and abundance of the universe.   The women in the center turned together in each of the four directions, carrying a silent prayer.  We felt so strong, powerful and supported.  The men felt so honored to hold that space for us.

Once we completed this portion, I invited the group to move into a circle.  We connected our energy to the earth and then out to the universe.  We brought the energy of love into our hearts and allowed that to flow through each person in the circle.  We brought that love into the center of the circle and created a wave of energy by moving into the center and out, back in and out until a powerful wave of energy was created.  We released that ball of love energy to be sent around the world and out into the universe.

As we walked away from the gated area, we came upon a flock of small birds.  They were in a circle.  As we approached, they flew up over top of us and spread out.  They were there to carry out that love energy on their wings.  It was a beautiful gift.

There were some powerful connections made that day.  We don’t know what that means for all of us, but we know we were all meant to be there.

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Welcoming The Light


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Sunrise – Photo by Leah Schroeder

It is the beginning of the Winter Solstice and a new moon. Where I live, it is a grey day outside and fairly mild weather for this time of year.  I feel drawn to write today.  It has been an intense time these past few months with a lot of different things holding my attention, and it is the perfect day to be in a space of contemplation and solitude.

There is balance with the movement between day and night, light and dark, the sun and the moon, the masculine and the feminine.  With the shifting of the seasons, there is always balance or a movement towards balance of light and dark.  So, as we experience the longest night to mark the beginning of the Winter Solstice, we are moving towards the Spring Equinox where night and day will be equal.  It is good to honour both the light and the dark within ourselves as well.  Being too much in the dark or too much in the light throws us out of balance.  There is strength and power in the balance between the light and dark with all of creation as within.  Ego throws us out of balance and Spirit or Love always brings us back.

With this new moon being in alignment with the Winter Solstice, it is a good time to reflect on what in our lives no longer serves us.  What is it we need to release at this time; anger, resentments, pain, judgement?  It is a time to let go and invite in and open ourselves to receive the love and abundance of the universe and to know that we are one with the universe and with that abundance.

The message in the Advent service I attended this morning was about transformation.   There was an acknowledgement of the fear that sometimes holds us back from allowing that transformation to happen.  It reminded me to look back over the year I have had and recognize the great transformation that has happened in my life over this time.  I am deeply grateful for all the teachers that have showed up to assist me at this time.  I am aware of moments where I have held back from that transformation; from stepping into my own light – a fear of being seen.  I am grateful for the learning opportunities, the recognition that I was holding back and the trust to let go of that.

This has been a year of constant change and transformation.  I have done my best to live more in the moment, not planning more than a few months in advance.  There has been a lot of freedom in that, and I admit at times, uncertainty.  I have learned to trust in the abundance of the universe and trust that everything works out when I let go.  I am learning to observe what lessons need to be learned when I feel resistance.  I always seem to find my way back to the word “surrender”.

I am reminded of a Shamanic Journey I experienced a few months ago.  I was sitting beside a pond of water, and in my journey, entered into that water to see where it came from.  I found myself travelling with a flowing stream.  I became the water, flowing deep into the earth, coming up through a hole of light, down a waterfall, and through someone’s body as that water was consumed.  I remember hearing the words “Be like water”.  I was also told that water is the life force and blood of the earth.  It is the heartbeat of the earth.  So if I am like water I am also that life force, that blood of the earth.

To surrender for me, means to flow like water, trust and allow.  There is an ebb and flow to life as in the changing seasons and the flow of light and dark.  I remember this as I center myself today.  I have spent time in meditation and will continue to throughout the day.  I am taking a moment to write down what needs to be released from my life and will burn it with a smudge of sage, cedar and sweetgrass.  I allow Spirit to carry the ash of what is to be released away with the wind.

So today I acknowledge the darkness and invite in and welcome the light. I open myself to possibility and step into and embrace my light as I move into a new season and new phase of my life.

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A New Song


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

The last few months, being back in Winnipeg after my summer in Sioux Narrows, Ontario, has brought about a flurry of activity.  I have been in a space of organizing, and creating the next phase of my life.  It has been challenging adjusting to the different energy of the city compared to the peace of the natural setting that was my home for three months.

I had a sense that this would be the case, so I pre-planned an outing to the sacred space of Bannock Point and the Petroforms.  It is a place that I continue to be drawn to and it was calling me back.  I have now been back to this sacred site a few times since my return to Winnipeg.

On this particular visit, early in September, I was introduced to the petroform of a creation story.  It is a depiction of a woman, Sky Woman, being lowered from the stars, pregnant with the first Red Nation male to walk this earth.  It was in a slightly out of the way place, away from the other petroforms and protected by the trees and terrain around it, and yet, it was meant to be found.  I placed an offering of tobacco and a coin, alongside other offerings left there, and said a brief prayer.

I headed to the Medicine Wheel, where I removed my sandals.  I walked slowly around the outside of the wheel.  At one entrance I noticed offerings of tobacco, coins and a variety of other objects.  Again, I said a prayer, offered tobacco and a coin and continued on to complete the walk around the circle.  I walked through one of the entrances to the Medicine Wheel, placed a circle of cedar around me, smudged with sage, sweetgrass and cedar and began a time of meditation. I placed my feet and hands directly on the rock beneath me.

As I do every time I come here, I knelt on the rock and held my forehead against it for a while, connecting my third eye with the energy of the earth.  I spent some time sending love and healing to the earth, holding my arms straight above me with my palms facing the sky.  Then continuing to hold my left arm up, I lowered my right arm with my right palm facing the earth.  I experienced a powerful wave of energy flowing through me.  I sent love and healing out as I repeated these motions in all four directions.

I took my time walking around the area, discovering petroforms I hadn’t seen before, enjoying the small discoveries of mushrooms, wild flowers, and berries.  I found a patch of wild blueberries and enjoyed a small snack.  I picked some kinnickinnik, bunch berries, rosehips and juniper berries.

I drove from this place to the waterfall, by the Womyn’s Gathering site.  I sounded my voice there as I had in the Spring.  This time, there was no need to yell or release any pain or anger.  All that came out was a sweet song from my heart; a gift to the water, the trees, and the elemental spirits of the forest, known as the Little People.

I have come a long way in a year, from experiencing the pain of having my heart cracked wide open a year ago and feeling deep grief, to learning to love myself, reclaiming my voice and finding my power.  I have awakened my passion and taken great leaps towards my soul’s calling.  I have come to a place of peace within.  This sacred place that keeps calling me home has also brought me home to myself.

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