Into The Stillness


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Photo by Leah Schroeder

I dive deep into this quiet place, the void, the nothingness and infinite possibilities all at the same time.

I sit in this stillness, allowing myself to grieve lives lost, relationships that have fallen away as I have opened up to allow my light to shine.

In this space in time I shed old energy.  I observe my reactions and emotions to events around me.

I sit in stillness, listening for the insights to guide me beyond this present moment.

In this moment, I recognize I have temporarily moved into the shadows.  It feels like a rubber band being pulled back, so that once released will fly forward with tremendous force and momentum.

I sit in stillness, being, breathing, feeling the peace in this space in time.

I am the bud of a flower.  I am growing, shifting, and changing, ready for the perfect moment to explode open with brilliant colour, light and beauty.

I sit in stillness, discovering this spiritual being within this physical body, this being that is so much bigger and brighter than the physical container that holds it.

I am love, contained for the moment within this vessel, allowing space to refill so there is more to give to others as I begin to overflow again.

I sit in stillness, appreciating this gift.  At first I resisted this experience, trying to figure out the why of it all.  I have shifted into acceptance and peace.

I have surrendered to the flow of life.

I sit in stillness, embracing the beauty of this moment with love and gratitude.

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Leah Schroeder is a Reiki Master, Integrated Energy Therapy® Master-Instructor, and ThetaHealing® Practitioner, www.lifeforcehealingservices.ca .  “I was born and raised in Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada. For most of my life this has been and currently is the place I call home. I spent 17 years working in Financial Services.  A strong sense that there is something more I am supposed to do in the world, a fascination with energy and a series of intuitive nudges have led me to begin practising Reiki ,  ThetaHealing®, and IET®. I have a desire to learn, practice, and teach other healing modalities, empowering others to help shift the consciousness of humanity.  I am grateful for the opportunity to share my thoughts and stories with you.”

Relationships In This Time Of Awakening


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

Relationships at the best of times can have their challenges to navigate whether they are with family, friends or the more intimate relationship with one’s partner.

Maybe it’s just me, but it feels the closer I am with people, the more intense relationship dynamics are at this time. As more light flows in, and shadows are exposed, the more things come to the surface to be healed. Generally, people seem more sensitive, including myself, and sometimes that can create friction or resistance and some challenging circumstances to work through.

I have experienced on occasion, the use, or choice, of words being challenged or misunderstood. Everyone has a different understanding of the words or phrases we use. This can at times lead to misunderstanding. This is particularly true via social media. When we speak directly with each other, via phone or face to face, we hear the tone of voice or see into the others eyes and have a greater understanding of the heart, or intent behind the words used.

I am human. I have emotion. Sometimes things anger or frustrate me. Other times I feel great joy and passion for the beauty of life around me. Sometimes I feel pain and sadness. Other times I feel in a place of peace and calm. I often feel what others around me feel and sometimes get caught up in their energy. If I see a situation where it appears that someone is being treated unfairly or is misunderstood, I will often stand up for them. My truest nature is gentleness and kindness and I do my best to allow that to be what radiates out from me and what others see in me. More and more I am learning through all those different emotions, to feel love and gratitude for myself and allow that to fill me up and flow out from me.

The expression of these emotions is also part of my awakening. For most of my life I have suppressed my feelings. Having the courage to express myself, even if the person I am sharing my feelings with may not receive this well, is important. Their response or reaction may be a reflection of where they are at in their own process. I do my best to do this from a place of love. I am still figuring out who in my life it is safe to do that with and who it is not. It is most important that I speak my own truth. I strive to always live from my heart. My intentions are always good.

I believe the strongest relationships are those that will stand by you even when things get a little messy. They are the people that will be the most honest with you and will challenge you, and yet be there for you when you need it most, and love you no matter what. They are the people that you feel safest with to fully express all of who you are – your whole, messy, awakening self. That is the kind of person I strive to be. Those are the people I choose to surround myself with.

Some relationships will survive this wild ride we are on, and become deeper, richer and stronger. Some will need to be released to make way for others to come in. It is not for us to judge when that happens, just to trust the process and know that it is all for the highest and best.

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Welcoming The Light


Welcoming the Light - Photo by Leah Schroeder

Sunrise – Photo by Leah Schroeder

It is the beginning of the Winter Solstice and a new moon. Where I live, it is a grey day outside and fairly mild weather for this time of year.  I feel drawn to write today.  It has been an intense time these past few months with a lot of different things holding my attention, and it is the perfect day to be in a space of contemplation and solitude.

There is balance with the movement between day and night, light and dark, the sun and the moon, the masculine and the feminine.  With the shifting of the seasons, there is always balance or a movement towards balance of light and dark.  So, as we experience the longest night to mark the beginning of the Winter Solstice, we are moving towards the Spring Equinox where night and day will be equal.  It is good to honour both the light and the dark within ourselves as well.  Being too much in the dark or too much in the light throws us out of balance.  There is strength and power in the balance between the light and dark with all of creation as within.  Ego throws us out of balance and Spirit or Love always brings us back.

With this new moon being in alignment with the Winter Solstice, it is a good time to reflect on what in our lives no longer serves us.  What is it we need to release at this time; anger, resentments, pain, judgement?  It is a time to let go and invite in and open ourselves to receive the love and abundance of the universe and to know that we are one with the universe and with that abundance.

The message in the Advent service I attended this morning was about transformation.   There was an acknowledgement of the fear that sometimes holds us back from allowing that transformation to happen.  It reminded me to look back over the year I have had and recognize the great transformation that has happened in my life over this time.  I am deeply grateful for all the teachers that have showed up to assist me at this time.  I am aware of moments where I have held back from that transformation; from stepping into my own light – a fear of being seen.  I am grateful for the learning opportunities, the recognition that I was holding back and the trust to let go of that.

This has been a year of constant change and transformation.  I have done my best to live more in the moment, not planning more than a few months in advance.  There has been a lot of freedom in that, and I admit at times, uncertainty.  I have learned to trust in the abundance of the universe and trust that everything works out when I let go.  I am learning to observe what lessons need to be learned when I feel resistance.  I always seem to find my way back to the word “surrender”.

I am reminded of a Shamanic Journey I experienced a few months ago.  I was sitting beside a pond of water, and in my journey, entered into that water to see where it came from.  I found myself travelling with a flowing stream.  I became the water, flowing deep into the earth, coming up through a hole of light, down a waterfall, and through someone’s body as that water was consumed.  I remember hearing the words “Be like water”.  I was also told that water is the life force and blood of the earth.  It is the heartbeat of the earth.  So if I am like water I am also that life force, that blood of the earth.

To surrender for me, means to flow like water, trust and allow.  There is an ebb and flow to life as in the changing seasons and the flow of light and dark.  I remember this as I center myself today.  I have spent time in meditation and will continue to throughout the day.  I am taking a moment to write down what needs to be released from my life and will burn it with a smudge of sage, cedar and sweetgrass.  I allow Spirit to carry the ash of what is to be released away with the wind.

So today I acknowledge the darkness and invite in and welcome the light. I open myself to possibility and step into and embrace my light as I move into a new season and new phase of my life.

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As Summer Nears Its End


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

By the time this is posted, I will be back in the Winnipeg for the fall.  It is hard to imagine leaving this place, now that I have been here almost three months.  It has been my refuge, my healing place.  This has been a time for me to focus on self-care so that I am better equipped to assist others with their healing.

Before I chose to come to here, I felt a need to create some space to give some of the work that I feel called to do some time to gel.  That has been a positive choice for me as there are all kinds of opportunities and blessings flowing my way.

I still have more healing to do, but I am stronger, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.  I feel more at peace with myself.  I have released anger, resentment and residual pain.  I still have people around me from time to time that attempt to pull me I to their drama, but I am getting better at removing myself from this fairly quickly.  I am learning to send them love and continue to hold a vibration of love and peace.  They show up to teach me.  I have met many women in the last few months that carry a lot of pain in their lives.  They are shifting, each at their own pace.  I send them love to hold them where ever they are at.

I have embraced connecting with the earth and water around me.  I am certain, throughout the fall and winter I will continue to be drawn to places outside the city where I can spend time connecting with nature.  I am less attached to the place that has been my home for the past seven years, or the city that has been my home for most of my life.

I have found great joy in walking barefoot in the grass, sending healing energy to the earth and receiving powerful healing energy from her in return.  I have had many opportunities to interact with the deer around me, watched turtles lay eggs, experienced an abundance of frogs and grasshoppers enjoying the yard around me, and watched dragonflies dance in the evening sky.  I have spent time embracing and celebrating the light of the full moon, watched in wonder as the night sky lit up with stars.  I have breathed in the fresh air, filled with the scent of pine and fir trees.  I have listened to the song of the wind in the trees and of crickets, frogs, loons, other birds, and water lapping against the shore.

I have replaced the fear of how my body reacts to the food I eat, with joy, gratitude, and pleasure.  It has given me a great deal of satisfaction to forage for wild edibles and add them to my diet.  I have more appreciation for and connection to where my food comes from.  I have learned what it feels like to really enjoy my food and understand how that impacts my body. I have observed the physical changes in my being as I have become more conscious of what I eat and of my physical activity.

To be clear, my focus has been on healing and returning to balance and not on my weight or appearance.  I love and accept myself as I am in whatever form or shape that is.  I have learned to see myself as a sacred woman and my body as the sacred vessel that holds my spirit.

What an amazing gift this summer has been!  I am deeply grateful.  It is soon coming to an end.  The weather is starting to shift.  The winds of change are blowing.  I surrender to the wind, to the flow of the river and to the voice of my soul calling me.  I have yet to understand the magnitude of what I have been preparing for or what lies ahead.

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The Path


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

I am wandering along a meandering stream.  Every now and then there is a place that branches off in another direction.  I stop to check it out to see if that is the direction I should go.  My heart says no, so I continue on along in the direction I was already travelling.

There is a light ahead calling me.  It is far enough off in the distance that I still don’t completely surrender to it, but I know it is there waiting for me.  Every day I get a little closer.

I keep my awareness on the present moment.  How do I feel about what I have experienced today, about what I am experiencing in this moment?  Is this something I should explore or let go and move on?  Does this feed my joy or deplete it?

Trust.  This is what my inner voice is telling me.  I will take care of you.  All will be well as you surrender to your soul’s calling.  I continue on.

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Emotional Triggers


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

Sometimes, you think you have dealt with something and moved past it, and then something happens to trigger emotions that are lying deep below the surface.  There is almost an unreasonable response to the event that triggers these feelings considering how far you have come and yet there it is.  It seems like a lot of people have stuff coming up in need of clearing and healing at this time.

In the last couple of weeks I have experienced this and have been completely unraveled by this set of circumstances.  I have allowed myself to feel my way through this, feeling pain, sometimes anger, and for a brief time, wondering where I belong in this world.  Reaching out to my close friends brings me some comfort and I feel supported and connected.

I realized I needed to spend some time healing these emotions that have come up.  I still have work to do to release judgement and to get past re-living this in my mind trying to figure out what went wrong.  Where did I fail and why wasn’t I enough?  I thought I had already healed and moved past these feelings. This trigger seems to have brought this to the surface to peel away and heal another layer.  I am enough.

I acknowledge the need to focus on all the good in the situation and what gifts I have received from this experience.  Gratitude.  I spend some time writing down all the things I am grateful for with respect to this relationship.

More connections with women follow, with shared experiences and feelings.  I am not alone.

Awareness of the energy of the Full Moon and the Lunar Eclipse, I acknowledge it is a time to let go of those things so I can move forward.  I celebrate the moon.  I meditate.  I set out water to be charged and healed by the moon.  Once the Full Moon is past, I say a blessing, and drink from this healing water. I meditate some more.

The day after the Lunar Eclipse, I pull out some Angel Blessing cards I use to set my focus for the day.  Often I only pull one card.  This morning I feel compelled to pull three.  They are all Angel Daniel cards about clearing judgements, which clearly tells me “Pay attention Leah!”  The blessing cards I pull are Forgiveness, Homecoming, and Kindness.

Forgiveness has to do with forgiving the other and more importantly myself.  Kindness, I believe, has to do with being kind to myself, honoring myself, letting go of judgement and allowing space for self-care and healing.  Homecoming, someone pointed out, has to do with coming back into union with one’s true self.  I have heard this message from other sources.  I believe this is a universal message for this time.

Today is a new day.  I have shifted into a new space and feel strong again.  I am okay.  I am connecting with many different people and finding community in different places.  Many people are experiencing these shifts at this time.  Let us hold each other in love and light as we support each other through all this change.

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Watching An Artist At Work


I watched an artist at work the other day. I was at home, looking out across the pond at the beginning whispers of sunset. Out of the corner of my eye I caught sight of a meaty looking spider, just beginning to build its web. Have any of you ever seen this?

I’ve seen them repair webs or catch my attention to one built nearly to completion, but I’ve never seen a spider start from the first threads, with its design obviously already in mind.The spider was on the other side of the screened porch so I was nearly eye to eye with it numerous times, but wasn’t feeling apprehensive. I suppose it would probably be classified as a medium- sized spider with thick brown legs, and it moved very quickly.

He started out dropping down in a free fall right in front of me. It caught my eye because I wondered what happened to it. Did it die suddenly? But once it had stopped in mid-air about hip level, it turned around and went back up the way it came.

The spider then seemed to dance with precision to the far left of where it started and then to the right, all the while stopping in the middle of the first thread and adding to it. The spider did this several times, creating the ambitious width of the web while also concentrating on a ball of thread in the very center. It looked like a miniature ball of white yarn.

Once it had the center well-defined it then dropped low again, this time not stopping until it reached a blade of grass on the ground. It did some work there as I realized it was anchoring the web to the ground. That’s when I became even more fascinated.
The spider went around and around the circumference of the area it had marked off with equal measure around the central knot. Its movements were even and purposeful and it seemed to take no notice of me staring at all.

As I stood there for several more minutes, I became simply dumbfounded at the beauty and dedication of the work I was witnessing. The spider seemed in complete control, going around the center point over and over, each time just a fraction of an inch away. I wondered if the spider was creative in making different webs, or if he always uses the same patterns. Is it better to always stay with what you know is safe and works, or to take a risk and often try something new to grow on?
And then I realized the full miracle of this observation. It isn’t just that this physical feat is impressive, or its amazing effectiveness in catching food. It isn’t even just about the beautiful visual design and how it captures rain drops and light glistening against it in the sun.

Look at the even more blatant spiritual lesson here.

The spider starts with a single thread and creates its central point and then anchors it off on the ground. Even spiders work on being centered and grounded! That’s how important it is! That is the kind of perseverance we need to remind ourselves to find our center and be grounded each day. With practice, the little stuff really does become nothing to sweat about, and everything really does work out the way it is supposed to.
There is a lesson in everything, we just need to be present to hear it.

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I am a 43 year old mother of 3, living in Florida with my partner and youngest child. Like the mythological phoenix, I have been reborn out of the ashes of my former way of life and have, for the last several years, set out on an exploration of self expression through visual art and creative writing. I am immensely grateful to feel a part of every living thing in existence and the emergence of a growing evolution of consciousness within and throughout. I am interested in all aspects of energy healing and spiritual transformation and have just recently become a student of Reiki. I understand there is always a choice and I try to choose love over fear at every turn. I am grateful for all of the other women in this group and for their ever present support and guidance. Jennifer Bothast