Honouring My Sisters – Reflecting On Where I Am Five Years Later


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Photo by Leah Schroeder

Five years have flown by since this blog first began.  So many things have shifted over that time for each of us on a personal level and also for the collective.  There have been many times over the past five years when I felt I was in a birthing canal, with a new or more authentic version of myself emerging.

Once again I am in the space of birthing.  I am listening to my soul’s calling, diving deeper.  The last few months have been challenging and uncomfortable, and yet, I keep putting one foot in front of the other.  I am cocooning, distancing myself from what others want from me, slowly breaking the chains of old contracts and the old self, at times gasping for air and fighting for my freedom.  And then, I let go and allow myself to move in flow with the waves of intense energy flooding in.  I am learning to follow the song of my inner voice. I am shedding the old paradigm, sitting in the in-between space as the metamorphosis takes place until I am ready to emerge on the other side, completely transformed.

I have glimpses of what is coming and where I will go, but the picture is not fully formed yet.  I am okay with not knowing what that looks like.  I surrender to the river that is carrying me forward.  I trust this river to hold me, to support me, and to lead me closer to the essence of who I am and to the core of my divine calling.

I am blessed to have so many amazing women in my life.  There are those who have been in my life for many years.  There are a few that have come into my life in the last short while to assist me with this shift I am in the midst of,  and for us to support each other and share in work we are being called to do.  They are my soul sisters, my mothers, the midwives supporting me through this birthing process I am moving through, my teachers, and those I have had the gift of passing on what I have learned. I, in turn, have the opportunity to serve in the same way for them.

I send love and gratitude to you, for your presence here, and your place in my life, as we continue to lift each other up, and together raise the vibration of the planet and shift the consciousness of humanity. Blessings to you. Namaste.

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Into The Stillness


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I dive deep into this quiet place, the void, the nothingness and infinite possibilities all at the same time.

I sit in this stillness, allowing myself to grieve lives lost, relationships that have fallen away as I have opened up to allow my light to shine.

In this space in time I shed old energy.  I observe my reactions and emotions to events around me.

I sit in stillness, listening for the insights to guide me beyond this present moment.

In this moment, I recognize I have temporarily moved into the shadows.  It feels like a rubber band being pulled back, so that once released will fly forward with tremendous force and momentum.

I sit in stillness, being, breathing, feeling the peace in this space in time.

I am the bud of a flower.  I am growing, shifting, and changing, ready for the perfect moment to explode open with brilliant colour, light and beauty.

I sit in stillness, discovering this spiritual being within this physical body, this being that is so much bigger and brighter than the physical container that holds it.

I am love, contained for the moment within this vessel, allowing space to refill so there is more to give to others as I begin to overflow again.

I sit in stillness, appreciating this gift.  At first I resisted this experience, trying to figure out the why of it all.  I have shifted into acceptance and peace.

I have surrendered to the flow of life.

I sit in stillness, embracing the beauty of this moment with love and gratitude.

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Relationships In This Time Of Awakening


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

Relationships at the best of times can have their challenges to navigate whether they are with family, friends or the more intimate relationship with one’s partner.

Maybe it’s just me, but it feels the closer I am with people, the more intense relationship dynamics are at this time. As more light flows in, and shadows are exposed, the more things come to the surface to be healed. Generally, people seem more sensitive, including myself, and sometimes that can create friction or resistance and some challenging circumstances to work through.

I have experienced on occasion, the use, or choice, of words being challenged or misunderstood. Everyone has a different understanding of the words or phrases we use. This can at times lead to misunderstanding. This is particularly true via social media. When we speak directly with each other, via phone or face to face, we hear the tone of voice or see into the others eyes and have a greater understanding of the heart, or intent behind the words used.

I am human. I have emotion. Sometimes things anger or frustrate me. Other times I feel great joy and passion for the beauty of life around me. Sometimes I feel pain and sadness. Other times I feel in a place of peace and calm. I often feel what others around me feel and sometimes get caught up in their energy. If I see a situation where it appears that someone is being treated unfairly or is misunderstood, I will often stand up for them. My truest nature is gentleness and kindness and I do my best to allow that to be what radiates out from me and what others see in me. More and more I am learning through all those different emotions, to feel love and gratitude for myself and allow that to fill me up and flow out from me.

The expression of these emotions is also part of my awakening. For most of my life I have suppressed my feelings. Having the courage to express myself, even if the person I am sharing my feelings with may not receive this well, is important. Their response or reaction may be a reflection of where they are at in their own process. I do my best to do this from a place of love. I am still figuring out who in my life it is safe to do that with and who it is not. It is most important that I speak my own truth. I strive to always live from my heart. My intentions are always good.

I believe the strongest relationships are those that will stand by you even when things get a little messy. They are the people that will be the most honest with you and will challenge you, and yet be there for you when you need it most, and love you no matter what. They are the people that you feel safest with to fully express all of who you are – your whole, messy, awakening self. That is the kind of person I strive to be. Those are the people I choose to surround myself with.

Some relationships will survive this wild ride we are on, and become deeper, richer and stronger. Some will need to be released to make way for others to come in. It is not for us to judge when that happens, just to trust the process and know that it is all for the highest and best.

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Boundaries


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

A few conversations I have had in the last week or so challenged me to reflect on the whole idea of boundaries and how we view life happening around us.  We create boundaries to define property, or ownership.  This is mine and that’s yours.  This is my country, that’s your country; my yard, your yard, me, you.  It is an illusion of separation.

After a meditation recently, we talked about how when tragic events happen in the world, whether on a small or large scale, we have an opportunity to shift the energy of the experience by responding with love and compassion. Events in the world like 9/11 or major natural disasters like the 2010 earthquake in Haiti, are large scale examples where the response to these events have raised the energetic vibration of the entire planet.   I began to explore this concept on a more personal level.

Prior to this, a good friend expressed concern over a particular situation, and the potential for me to be hurt by another’s actions.  I am grateful for her care and the opportunity it gave me to reflect on this subject.  I know she will be reading this so I write this with the utmost love and respect.

Over the past few months I have had the opportunity to participate in a few Sacred Womyn Workshops.  I talk about the energy of our words and the impact the energy we hold in our body affects us and the world around us.  I talk about learning to live from a place of love and peace and the power of that to heal ourselves and the earth.

When I consider what it means to truly live from a place of love, with love there are no boundaries.  There is no separation.  Everything is a reflection of something within me, including whatever dynamics I experience with another person.  So, I can choose to put up walls to protect myself from those dynamics or I can hold an energy of love and peace.  My partner and I often talk about how in any given moment we can choose to respond to life with fear or love.

This doesn’t mean I should or need to engage in a relationship with someone that has harmed me in some way.  I can choose not to.  If I am holding that energy of love, I will attract situations and people that resonate on the same vibration I am at.  If what I have attracted doesn’t appear to be on the same vibration, is it possible I have attracted it because it is a reflection of some aspect of myself?  If I look at it as a shadow side of myself, I can bring it into harmony with other aspects of my being by shedding light on it and bringing in an energy of love and compassion.

At the same time, if an opportunity presents itself where I can engage in dialogue with someone that may have “hurt” me in some way or treated me badly or has differing beliefs from myself, I can choose to connect with this person from a place of love.  This creates a possibility for transformation for both me and the other person.

I have done a lot of work to break down the walls around my heart.  I am still a work in progress.  Being love and living from that place, requires me to keep my heart open.  It requires me to be vulnerable.  It requires me to be awake to possibility, to risk and to have faith.

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A New Song


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

The last few months, being back in Winnipeg after my summer in Sioux Narrows, Ontario, has brought about a flurry of activity.  I have been in a space of organizing, and creating the next phase of my life.  It has been challenging adjusting to the different energy of the city compared to the peace of the natural setting that was my home for three months.

I had a sense that this would be the case, so I pre-planned an outing to the sacred space of Bannock Point and the Petroforms.  It is a place that I continue to be drawn to and it was calling me back.  I have now been back to this sacred site a few times since my return to Winnipeg.

On this particular visit, early in September, I was introduced to the petroform of a creation story.  It is a depiction of a woman, Sky Woman, being lowered from the stars, pregnant with the first Red Nation male to walk this earth.  It was in a slightly out of the way place, away from the other petroforms and protected by the trees and terrain around it, and yet, it was meant to be found.  I placed an offering of tobacco and a coin, alongside other offerings left there, and said a brief prayer.

I headed to the Medicine Wheel, where I removed my sandals.  I walked slowly around the outside of the wheel.  At one entrance I noticed offerings of tobacco, coins and a variety of other objects.  Again, I said a prayer, offered tobacco and a coin and continued on to complete the walk around the circle.  I walked through one of the entrances to the Medicine Wheel, placed a circle of cedar around me, smudged with sage, sweetgrass and cedar and began a time of meditation. I placed my feet and hands directly on the rock beneath me.

As I do every time I come here, I knelt on the rock and held my forehead against it for a while, connecting my third eye with the energy of the earth.  I spent some time sending love and healing to the earth, holding my arms straight above me with my palms facing the sky.  Then continuing to hold my left arm up, I lowered my right arm with my right palm facing the earth.  I experienced a powerful wave of energy flowing through me.  I sent love and healing out as I repeated these motions in all four directions.

I took my time walking around the area, discovering petroforms I hadn’t seen before, enjoying the small discoveries of mushrooms, wild flowers, and berries.  I found a patch of wild blueberries and enjoyed a small snack.  I picked some kinnickinnik, bunch berries, rosehips and juniper berries.

I drove from this place to the waterfall, by the Womyn’s Gathering site.  I sounded my voice there as I had in the Spring.  This time, there was no need to yell or release any pain or anger.  All that came out was a sweet song from my heart; a gift to the water, the trees, and the elemental spirits of the forest, known as the Little People.

I have come a long way in a year, from experiencing the pain of having my heart cracked wide open a year ago and feeling deep grief, to learning to love myself, reclaiming my voice and finding my power.  I have awakened my passion and taken great leaps towards my soul’s calling.  I have come to a place of peace within.  This sacred place that keeps calling me home has also brought me home to myself.

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As Summer Nears Its End


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

By the time this is posted, I will be back in the Winnipeg for the fall.  It is hard to imagine leaving this place, now that I have been here almost three months.  It has been my refuge, my healing place.  This has been a time for me to focus on self-care so that I am better equipped to assist others with their healing.

Before I chose to come to here, I felt a need to create some space to give some of the work that I feel called to do some time to gel.  That has been a positive choice for me as there are all kinds of opportunities and blessings flowing my way.

I still have more healing to do, but I am stronger, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.  I feel more at peace with myself.  I have released anger, resentment and residual pain.  I still have people around me from time to time that attempt to pull me I to their drama, but I am getting better at removing myself from this fairly quickly.  I am learning to send them love and continue to hold a vibration of love and peace.  They show up to teach me.  I have met many women in the last few months that carry a lot of pain in their lives.  They are shifting, each at their own pace.  I send them love to hold them where ever they are at.

I have embraced connecting with the earth and water around me.  I am certain, throughout the fall and winter I will continue to be drawn to places outside the city where I can spend time connecting with nature.  I am less attached to the place that has been my home for the past seven years, or the city that has been my home for most of my life.

I have found great joy in walking barefoot in the grass, sending healing energy to the earth and receiving powerful healing energy from her in return.  I have had many opportunities to interact with the deer around me, watched turtles lay eggs, experienced an abundance of frogs and grasshoppers enjoying the yard around me, and watched dragonflies dance in the evening sky.  I have spent time embracing and celebrating the light of the full moon, watched in wonder as the night sky lit up with stars.  I have breathed in the fresh air, filled with the scent of pine and fir trees.  I have listened to the song of the wind in the trees and of crickets, frogs, loons, other birds, and water lapping against the shore.

I have replaced the fear of how my body reacts to the food I eat, with joy, gratitude, and pleasure.  It has given me a great deal of satisfaction to forage for wild edibles and add them to my diet.  I have more appreciation for and connection to where my food comes from.  I have learned what it feels like to really enjoy my food and understand how that impacts my body. I have observed the physical changes in my being as I have become more conscious of what I eat and of my physical activity.

To be clear, my focus has been on healing and returning to balance and not on my weight or appearance.  I love and accept myself as I am in whatever form or shape that is.  I have learned to see myself as a sacred woman and my body as the sacred vessel that holds my spirit.

What an amazing gift this summer has been!  I am deeply grateful.  It is soon coming to an end.  The weather is starting to shift.  The winds of change are blowing.  I surrender to the wind, to the flow of the river and to the voice of my soul calling me.  I have yet to understand the magnitude of what I have been preparing for or what lies ahead.

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Summer Blessings


A Morning Visit with Mama and Her Baby - Photo by Leah Schroeder

A Morning Visit with Mama and Her Baby – Photo by Leah Schroeder

I feel very blessed to be spending my summer in the way that I have been.  Although I have been working long hours, the pace is relaxed and low stress.  I have met people from all over North America.  I felt a strong draw to get out of the city and be near a lake for the summer.  It is part of my healing journey.

This healing is happening on several levels.  Over time a combination of factors, emotional, environmental and otherwise, have created physical symptoms I have been attempting to heal for over a year now.  I suppose they are tied to other things I have been addressing in various ways for several years.  A skin rash or eczema appeared that is an outward warning that something below the surface needs attention. It is slowly improving.

Along with a change of scenery this summer, I am doing a particular protocol, that has eliminated sugar from my diet, and requires that I am more conscious of eating as much organic produce and antibiotic free meat as possible.  I am also taking a sort of homeopathic protocol that addresses imbalance in the body on an energetic level.  Sometimes, it means disconnecting from technology for short periods, which is probably the most challenging and yet most beneficial part for me.  My current living situation assists with this as I have limited access to Wi-Fi.

Being in this beautiful space has also contributed to healing. I hold so much gratitude in my heart for the beauty I get to experience around me every day; the sound of loons on the lake, the many opportunities to connect with deer on my daily walk from the resort to the trailer where I stay or in my yard in the evening, wild flowers, discovering turtles in the process of laying eggs in my yard, the song of frogs and crickets at night, time by the lake, swimming, listening to the sound of water lapping against the shore, the feel of the ground beneath my feet as I wander around barefoot, picking plantain leaf and clover flowers to add to my lunch, discovering wild strawberries in my yard, watching tiny birds bathe in the small waterfall of the pond beside the office.  When I take a drive in the area, I see cliffs of granite, multiple lakes, and waterfalls.  When I walk from the office to my trailer I often breathe deeply to fill my lungs with the clean air filled with the scent of clover and pine and balsam fir.

I am enjoying being somewhere I can focus on self-care and explore the beauty around me.  I feel peaceful, relaxed and re-energized.  I am slowly finishing editing my book and beginning to plan reiki classes for the fall.  Nothing is rushed.  As I feel drawn to work on this I act on it.  If I feel drawn to go for a swim, I swim.  If I feel compelled to take my shoes off and walk barefoot on the mossy ground in my yard, I walk barefoot.  If I see deer in my yard, I stop what I am doing to visit with them.  They are getting braver to come right up to me to touch my hand with their nose.
Today as I was preparing my breakfast a beautiful song emerged from within.  It was a sweet sound that I have never heard from my voice before.  My heart is healing. My body is healing.    My voice and my soul are being given space to emerge as my life moves in alignment with my soul’s calling.

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