Honouring My Sisters – Reflecting On Where I Am Five Years Later


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Photo by Leah Schroeder

Five years have flown by since this blog first began.  So many things have shifted over that time for each of us on a personal level and also for the collective.  There have been many times over the past five years when I felt I was in a birthing canal, with a new or more authentic version of myself emerging.

Once again I am in the space of birthing.  I am listening to my soul’s calling, diving deeper.  The last few months have been challenging and uncomfortable, and yet, I keep putting one foot in front of the other.  I am cocooning, distancing myself from what others want from me, slowly breaking the chains of old contracts and the old self, at times gasping for air and fighting for my freedom.  And then, I let go and allow myself to move in flow with the waves of intense energy flooding in.  I am learning to follow the song of my inner voice. I am shedding the old paradigm, sitting in the in-between space as the metamorphosis takes place until I am ready to emerge on the other side, completely transformed.

I have glimpses of what is coming and where I will go, but the picture is not fully formed yet.  I am okay with not knowing what that looks like.  I surrender to the river that is carrying me forward.  I trust this river to hold me, to support me, and to lead me closer to the essence of who I am and to the core of my divine calling.

I am blessed to have so many amazing women in my life.  There are those who have been in my life for many years.  There are a few that have come into my life in the last short while to assist me with this shift I am in the midst of,  and for us to support each other and share in work we are being called to do.  They are my soul sisters, my mothers, the midwives supporting me through this birthing process I am moving through, my teachers, and those I have had the gift of passing on what I have learned. I, in turn, have the opportunity to serve in the same way for them.

I send love and gratitude to you, for your presence here, and your place in my life, as we continue to lift each other up, and together raise the vibration of the planet and shift the consciousness of humanity. Blessings to you. Namaste.

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Into The Stillness


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Photo by Leah Schroeder

I dive deep into this quiet place, the void, the nothingness and infinite possibilities all at the same time.

I sit in this stillness, allowing myself to grieve lives lost, relationships that have fallen away as I have opened up to allow my light to shine.

In this space in time I shed old energy.  I observe my reactions and emotions to events around me.

I sit in stillness, listening for the insights to guide me beyond this present moment.

In this moment, I recognize I have temporarily moved into the shadows.  It feels like a rubber band being pulled back, so that once released will fly forward with tremendous force and momentum.

I sit in stillness, being, breathing, feeling the peace in this space in time.

I am the bud of a flower.  I am growing, shifting, and changing, ready for the perfect moment to explode open with brilliant colour, light and beauty.

I sit in stillness, discovering this spiritual being within this physical body, this being that is so much bigger and brighter than the physical container that holds it.

I am love, contained for the moment within this vessel, allowing space to refill so there is more to give to others as I begin to overflow again.

I sit in stillness, appreciating this gift.  At first I resisted this experience, trying to figure out the why of it all.  I have shifted into acceptance and peace.

I have surrendered to the flow of life.

I sit in stillness, embracing the beauty of this moment with love and gratitude.

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Relationships In This Time Of Awakening


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

Relationships at the best of times can have their challenges to navigate whether they are with family, friends or the more intimate relationship with one’s partner.

Maybe it’s just me, but it feels the closer I am with people, the more intense relationship dynamics are at this time. As more light flows in, and shadows are exposed, the more things come to the surface to be healed. Generally, people seem more sensitive, including myself, and sometimes that can create friction or resistance and some challenging circumstances to work through.

I have experienced on occasion, the use, or choice, of words being challenged or misunderstood. Everyone has a different understanding of the words or phrases we use. This can at times lead to misunderstanding. This is particularly true via social media. When we speak directly with each other, via phone or face to face, we hear the tone of voice or see into the others eyes and have a greater understanding of the heart, or intent behind the words used.

I am human. I have emotion. Sometimes things anger or frustrate me. Other times I feel great joy and passion for the beauty of life around me. Sometimes I feel pain and sadness. Other times I feel in a place of peace and calm. I often feel what others around me feel and sometimes get caught up in their energy. If I see a situation where it appears that someone is being treated unfairly or is misunderstood, I will often stand up for them. My truest nature is gentleness and kindness and I do my best to allow that to be what radiates out from me and what others see in me. More and more I am learning through all those different emotions, to feel love and gratitude for myself and allow that to fill me up and flow out from me.

The expression of these emotions is also part of my awakening. For most of my life I have suppressed my feelings. Having the courage to express myself, even if the person I am sharing my feelings with may not receive this well, is important. Their response or reaction may be a reflection of where they are at in their own process. I do my best to do this from a place of love. I am still figuring out who in my life it is safe to do that with and who it is not. It is most important that I speak my own truth. I strive to always live from my heart. My intentions are always good.

I believe the strongest relationships are those that will stand by you even when things get a little messy. They are the people that will be the most honest with you and will challenge you, and yet be there for you when you need it most, and love you no matter what. They are the people that you feel safest with to fully express all of who you are – your whole, messy, awakening self. That is the kind of person I strive to be. Those are the people I choose to surround myself with.

Some relationships will survive this wild ride we are on, and become deeper, richer and stronger. Some will need to be released to make way for others to come in. It is not for us to judge when that happens, just to trust the process and know that it is all for the highest and best.

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Emotional Triggers


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Photo by Leah Schroeder

Sometimes, you think you have dealt with something and moved past it, and then something happens to trigger emotions that are lying deep below the surface.  There is almost an unreasonable response to the event that triggers these feelings considering how far you have come and yet there it is.  It seems like a lot of people have stuff coming up in need of clearing and healing at this time.

In the last couple of weeks I have experienced this and have been completely unraveled by this set of circumstances.  I have allowed myself to feel my way through this, feeling pain, sometimes anger, and for a brief time, wondering where I belong in this world.  Reaching out to my close friends brings me some comfort and I feel supported and connected.

I realized I needed to spend some time healing these emotions that have come up.  I still have work to do to release judgement and to get past re-living this in my mind trying to figure out what went wrong.  Where did I fail and why wasn’t I enough?  I thought I had already healed and moved past these feelings. This trigger seems to have brought this to the surface to peel away and heal another layer.  I am enough.

I acknowledge the need to focus on all the good in the situation and what gifts I have received from this experience.  Gratitude.  I spend some time writing down all the things I am grateful for with respect to this relationship.

More connections with women follow, with shared experiences and feelings.  I am not alone.

Awareness of the energy of the Full Moon and the Lunar Eclipse, I acknowledge it is a time to let go of those things so I can move forward.  I celebrate the moon.  I meditate.  I set out water to be charged and healed by the moon.  Once the Full Moon is past, I say a blessing, and drink from this healing water. I meditate some more.

The day after the Lunar Eclipse, I pull out some Angel Blessing cards I use to set my focus for the day.  Often I only pull one card.  This morning I feel compelled to pull three.  They are all Angel Daniel cards about clearing judgements, which clearly tells me “Pay attention Leah!”  The blessing cards I pull are Forgiveness, Homecoming, and Kindness.

Forgiveness has to do with forgiving the other and more importantly myself.  Kindness, I believe, has to do with being kind to myself, honoring myself, letting go of judgement and allowing space for self-care and healing.  Homecoming, someone pointed out, has to do with coming back into union with one’s true self.  I have heard this message from other sources.  I believe this is a universal message for this time.

Today is a new day.  I have shifted into a new space and feel strong again.  I am okay.  I am connecting with many different people and finding community in different places.  Many people are experiencing these shifts at this time.  Let us hold each other in love and light as we support each other through all this change.

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Entering into the Year of the Horse


Image courtesy of Tina Phillips / FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Image courtesy of Tina Phillips / FreeDigitalPhotos.net

January 31st, 2014.  Today is my 48th birthday.  It is also Chinese New Year – The Year of the Horse.  This is my year.  I have just been through and continue to be in the midst of great change.  What adventures lie ahead?

I am grateful for all the lessons of the past year to year and a half, and yet I am glad to be moving into a different phase of life.  I am not sure yet if a more peaceful time of stability is on the horizon, but I trust that whatever comes, I will be ready for it and it will be something even better than I can imagine.

This last month has been a time of sticking close to home and doing a lot of self-care.   It feels like it was something that has been imposed upon me and yet a friend suggested that maybe it was simply a challenge to spend some time looking after myself for a change.  With a cold virus that decided to stick around for a few weeks and brought me to ring in the New Year spending a few days on my couch, and a major skin irritation that my doctor believes to be eczema caused by some allergic reaction – to what I have yet to determine, I have certainly been challenged.

I have had the opportunity to explore various natural remedies for the cold virus, all of which helped to varying degrees.  Eventually the virus moved on.  While my immune system was busy with addressing the cold, the skin irritation developed on my upper body.  Some things I tried brought minor relief, while others, created more irritation. I spent some time doing Reiki and ThetaHealing® on myself.   I found some relief taking baths with a tea made with cedar, Labrador leaf and Wekay root (also known as Rat Root or Calamus Root) added to the water along with Himalayan salt, some aluminum free baking soda, and a few of my favourite essential oils.  It helped calm the irritation and was a good time for some meditation. In the end, some medical intervention was needed to give me enough relief to function more normally.

This process has certainly brought me to be aware of my physical self.  I have also explored the question, “What is it, on a subconscious level that is triggering these health challenges?”  It has provided a bit of a transitional break as I have let go of various aspects of my life and am shifting into the new.  Now, as I continue to heal, my focus has shifted more onto where do I go from here?

Last night, I chose to bring in this new phase of life – the evening of the Super New Moon and Chinese New Year’s Eve, attending a meditation, which I often do on Thursday evenings.  During the drumming part of the meditation, I chose to drift into a journey to visit with my power animals.  I received some helpful guidance during that time.  For the first time, I detached from the drumming and it took on a life of its own.  The intensity of the drumming in the room brought me back as this part of the meditation came to an end.

The next part of the meditation was the toning.  During this time, I felt a different energy around me.  It almost felt like someone was brushing from my head to my shoulders, my back and my arms with feathers.  Actually, it felt more like wings – of an angel.

This time was followed by playing of Crystal bowls and then silent meditation.  While the bowls were being played, there were some strange sounds.  A few people commented on this after.  To me it almost sounded like a few times someone was scratching some metal or something sharp against the bowls.  It was an uncomfortable sound.   There were other gifts from Spirit presented throughout the evening.

Every meditation is different and I leave this sacred space with different feelings.  Sometimes I leave with a feeling of incredible joy.  Other times something else has shifted within me creating a release of tears as I make my way home.  This was my experience last night.

The tears carried into this morning.  What a way to start my birthday!  It may be a combination of the shifting energy of this moment in time and within me, coupled with some hormonal shifts.  I was experiencing a moment of feeling somewhat disconnected from everyone in my life and feeling unsure of myself and the path I am on.

Spending time in a healing bath and a lot of time in meditation today – along with a few phone calls from people close to me has brought me back into feeling connected again.

I am stepping into the unknown.  It is important for me at this time to be open to the teachers that present themselves, but more importantly to really begin to trust, honour and pay attention to the voice within me.  I am shedding the old skin, the old story of who I am.   I have ideas of what the road ahead might look like, but I am honestly still in the process of awakening the gifts within me and finding my soul’s calling.  I am still finding my voice and haven’t quite discovered how best to use it.  Is it through writing?  Is it through healing work or teaching others?  Is there something else waiting to emerge?

I listened to a Webinar recently that talked about bringing together all the parts of your life that bring you joy and forming it into a business that is uniquely you and expresses the essence of who you are.  It is an intriguing concept that is still swimming around in my head and my heart and I am sure will for some time until it jells into something that fits for me.

And so a new year of my life begins.  Although there is uncertainty, I enter it in peace.  I move forward with anticipation of what great treasures I will discover along the way.

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A visit to Afghan refugees in Belgium


activistA church in the middle of Brussels, outside a few men are hanging around. It’s Sunday afternoon.
The signs outside the door inform that this church is used as a shelter by Afghan refugees.
After reading these signs me and two of my dear friends enter the church.
Before us a small path leading through the whole church. To the left and to the right all kinds of mattresses laying on the ground, one next to the other. No space left between them. A variety of blankets and sheets in all sizes and colors cover the mattresses. A few of them have a little camping tent above it. Little packages are laying next to the pillows at the back of the mattresses. I suppose they contain the ‘personal stuff’.
On some of the mattresses a few people sit together talking. Friendly they direct us to the end of the church to a young man who speaks French and English. He says he’s responsible at the moment. We explain that we came to bring some stuff to help, clothes, toys. No, they can’t accept the clothes, because when it doesn’t fit anyone or when it’s to old stuff they have to get rid of it and it creates a garbage problem. But blankets and shoes for men are welcome. No, no toys for children, there is no space in the church to create a corner for kids to play. Every inch is filled with mattresses.
I notice how tidy everything is, basic but clean and very tidy.
Of the 450 Afghan refugees out on the streets, 250 live here. I try to imagine how it must be to sleep on those mattresses with 250 men, woman and children in one big bedroom!
A photographer with camera at hand is talking with two men… I hope that his photographs and perhaps his article can achieve something to help these people.

A few stairs are leading to the platform where the altar should stand. I can’t figure out if it’s there because more tiny camping tents on the platform catch my eye and attention. The big sign in front of them says: here live the people who support the Afghan refugees with their hunger strike.
I look up and see the paintings of the saints look down on them from the walls… the space for offering has become a space for sacrifice, the sacrifice of the health and well being of the hunger strikers to appeal for justice for these Afghan people. In my imagination I see the priest at the altar during the offering. I hope that the sacrifice made by the hunger strikers opens the gates of heaven for all those refugees!

Just one street from here there is a big Christmas market with lights, food, a carousel for the children. The weather is fine and many came to visit the market. There’s hardly a parking spot left. The taverns are filled with people… but in the church was just us, and a photographer and the many mattresses, and a little boy trying to play on the small corridor between them.
It’s almost Christmastime. In two weeks we celebrate the birth of a little child in a stable. He and his parents were homeless also. In the comfort of our homes we will celebrate his birth and exchange gifts with our loved ones. But perhaps the people in this church are closer to this child than we ever will be.

I wonder if the policy makers who decide about the lives of these people that try to survive by leaving a country devastated by war, will celebrate Christmas with a peaceful mind.
I wonder if it would change something if our policy makers would spend those days together with these refugees on those mattresses. I wonder how happy they would be to celebrate the coming Christmas holidays in Afghanistan, a country where their lives would also be in danger, a country they think these refugees should return to.
I wonder how a modern so called civilized society can let these refugees – and many other homeless people – live their lives on the floor, in the streets, in poverty, with no papers, no opportunities, no perspectives for a dignified future.

What kind of strange disease must be consuming our hearts and minds to make us to afraid to share some space and resources with people who need a helping hand and some decent shelter? What makes us hold on to inhuman so called ‘laws’?
How can we really feel joy at Christmas knowing that these people are out there? How can we let them stay ‘invisible’ in our society?

The only way I can imagine a joyful Christmas is standing with hundreds, no tens of thousands of fellow human beings around that church with a symbolic Christmas light in our hand, and STAY there just as long as their human rights are not being respected by the people we have voted for.

On our way out of the church one of the men sitting on a mattress offers us a cookie. This gentle and kind man who has nearly nothing still has something he wants to share… I am glad that my friend accepted the cookie. I don’t have the stomach for it. I am to ashamed of being a Belgian citizen today.

Changing Seasons


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

A short time ago, I went for a walk in a city park.  It was a cool, windy day.  I stopped for a few moments along the banks of the river to watch some geese huddled together along the edges of a small island in the middle of the river.  The cool bite of the wind kept me moving on.  The trees were mostly bare, with the ground being littered with their leaves.  It was a reminder that winter is not too far away.

As I walked, I reflected on the significance of the changing seasons.  Autumn has always been a reminder to me that summer has passed and winter is coming.  Aside from enjoying the beauty of the colour of the leaves at this time of year, I haven’t really embraced this season before.

This year autumn has brought significant changes for me.  I have experiences a lot of pain and grief and feeling of loss.  Out of that I have been able to strip away what no longer serves me.  Some aspects of that feel like a death or an ending, but it really has just created space for new growth.  Nature has an inherent ability to release the old to make way for the new and to create opportunity to reach new heights.

When autumn has come to an end and winter sets in, it feels like there is no growth.  Everything is resting and yet not necessarily remaining idle.  For me this year, it will be a time to continue my healing process.  I don’t really know what this winter will bring for me.

There is hope in knowing that winter is followed by spring.  Spring is a time when the new growth that has been waiting below the surface, finally has the opportunity to emerge.  Everything seems brighter.  When the first warm days of spring occur, in the city where I live, people head outside.  One sees more people out walking, cycling, spending time in the local parks, or at outdoor cafes.  People seem happier when the long winter is over.

I surrender to the flow of life and allow myself to move and be transformed together with the changing seasons.

Berries - Photo by Leah Schroeder

Berries – Photo by Leah Schroeder

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Leah Schroeder is a Reiki Master and ThetaHealing® Practitioner, www.lifeforcehealingservices.ca and a Financial Representative. “I was born and raised in Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada. For most of my 47 years this has been and currently is the place I call home. I have been working in Financial Services for the past 16 years educating people about their finances, helping them restructure and reduce debt, invest for the future and properly protect their families. A strong sense that there is something more I am supposed to do in the world, a fascination with energy and a series of intuitive nudges has led me to begin practising Reiki and ThetaHealing®. I have a desire to learn and practise other healing modalities, as well as serve children and empower young women around the world. I am grateful for the opportunity to share my thoughts and stories with you.”