LOVING YOU ( I die either way )

Loving you I shall die either way
There is no return

For if I say no to this passion
that slumbers within
No to your laughter
that slips under my skin

No to my heart that longs to take wing
And no to this moment
more precious than spring

No because of the distance
It’s too far
It’s much too vast
No because why try?
When we know that nothing will last

In this moment when I look life right in the eyes
And choose NO in response
to God’s sweetest surprise

In that same moment
That moment of No
I shall start to whither and die
And my heart shall grow heavy
and the sun shall not rise

Live a pauper’s life
Empty pockets and pretty lies
Solemn and somber
A lovely disguise

I buried my flight
Oh so well behaved
Ticking off time as I march to my grave

And yet if I say yes
To follow my bliss
The kind that leads to topsy turvys
And martinis with a twist

Yes to the difference in age
And the difference of place
The wild funny stories and a place on your face

Yes to the lines that just won’t leave my head
The line is “you go girl” before you are dead

If I say yes to this ache
which I don’t even understand
That has pulled me right out of any logical plans

If I say yes to licking the salt off of your skin
Or allowing you to enter me deep deep within
Then my oh my, then I shall really die
As I surrender to life’s sweet surprise

And this death will be quick
on that night of no moons
As we glide on the lake
and you dive like a loon

And there in the dark
Without time, age or space
There I am showered
in God’s Holy grace

I am not here and you are not there
We are where nobody worries and nobody cares

Only our souls
to see if it’s true
Only our hearts beating
I love you.

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Kara Johnstad is a creative visionary, transformational catalyst and a powerful voice in the time and age of transition. She is a singer / songwriter, creator of The Essence Radio Show™, and founder of the Voice Your Essence™ Mastery Program. She is also a regular contributor the THE DAILY SISTERHOOD BLOG. If you have enjoyed the article, you might also enjoy Kara’s soulful music as part of your daily ritual. If you are ready to take your voice and your world to the next level, you can reach Kara at http://www.karajohnstad.com