Preparing for Great Change


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These words have been brewing for a bit waiting to be released in written form.  I don’t know what will emerge as I open myself to allow my thoughts to flow.

I mentioned a few months ago, feeling like I am in a process of birthing.  I have more clarity surrounding that process now. There is a big wave of change coming and I am preparing.   I could say it will be and already is a significantly defining moment in my life. I feel that within every fibre of my being.

I have spent the past month and a half engaged in some deep self-healing/transformation and have more to come in the next few months.  I have been having visions of important actions for me to take over the next while to bring closure to this phase of my life so I can move forward freely into the next.  I am fully committed to this process, not holding back any longer.  I am no longer waiting for certain things in my life to line up, or other people to let go, so that I can go forward.

There has been some grieving through this process as I acknowledged the transition to Spirit one of my mentors, a woman who has had a great impact on my life.  She will continue to have a presence and significance in my life as I move forward.  There are other forms of grief being processed within me as I release attachment to roles I have played in order to make space for the new.

In the last few weeks there have been a few events happening around me that have been in my thoughts.  I am not sure exactly how it fits into my process at the moment, but I have been able to observe without attachment.  Something that would have triggered me in the past brought to my awareness compassion and empathy.  I was very aware that I was no longer angry and wasn’t even interested in going there when others attempted to pull me into it.

When I began to feel the deep pain of the situation, instead of reacting to it, I chose to spend some time in meditation, sending love to all those involved.  It brought to my awareness that the most important thing for me to do in that moment was to shift my energy.  Doing so brought me a sense of peace.  Everyone involved had lessons to learn, including me as the observer.  I am grateful for this new level of awareness.  I feel somehow this is an important part of the process I am in the middle of.

I have an awareness that the karmic lessons of my life are showing themselves once more to challenge me to move through them.  Instead of feeling powerless, I embrace my power and create space for my light to shine through.  I embrace the expression of the Divine that I am.  I am shedding the old layers I have carried and blossoming into a new way of being and living.

As I write this, I bring my awareness to the beauty of life that surrounds me: the plants that I have been gifted to care for lined up in front of my window, all the trees out my front window that create a magnificent canopy over the road and house along the street that I live on.  I enjoyed an afternoon at the lake a few days ago, feeling surrounded by the coolness of the water and aware of the majestic sky carrying amazing cloud formations.  Life is really magical when I observe what surrounds me.

Every moment I experience is an incredible blessing.  I am grateful for the lessons, for the continuous challenge to shift my consciousness, raise my vibration, and support others as they do the same.  I am grateful to be at a place in my life where I can step fully into my divine calling, completely surrendering and trusting the road will reveal itself as I continue to take steps forward, and knowing that I am fully surrounded and supported in the process.

Blessings to you.

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Relationships In This Time Of Awakening


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Photo by Leah Schroeder

Relationships at the best of times can have their challenges to navigate whether they are with family, friends or the more intimate relationship with one’s partner.

Maybe it’s just me, but it feels the closer I am with people, the more intense relationship dynamics are at this time. As more light flows in, and shadows are exposed, the more things come to the surface to be healed. Generally, people seem more sensitive, including myself, and sometimes that can create friction or resistance and some challenging circumstances to work through.

I have experienced on occasion, the use, or choice, of words being challenged or misunderstood. Everyone has a different understanding of the words or phrases we use. This can at times lead to misunderstanding. This is particularly true via social media. When we speak directly with each other, via phone or face to face, we hear the tone of voice or see into the others eyes and have a greater understanding of the heart, or intent behind the words used.

I am human. I have emotion. Sometimes things anger or frustrate me. Other times I feel great joy and passion for the beauty of life around me. Sometimes I feel pain and sadness. Other times I feel in a place of peace and calm. I often feel what others around me feel and sometimes get caught up in their energy. If I see a situation where it appears that someone is being treated unfairly or is misunderstood, I will often stand up for them. My truest nature is gentleness and kindness and I do my best to allow that to be what radiates out from me and what others see in me. More and more I am learning through all those different emotions, to feel love and gratitude for myself and allow that to fill me up and flow out from me.

The expression of these emotions is also part of my awakening. For most of my life I have suppressed my feelings. Having the courage to express myself, even if the person I am sharing my feelings with may not receive this well, is important. Their response or reaction may be a reflection of where they are at in their own process. I do my best to do this from a place of love. I am still figuring out who in my life it is safe to do that with and who it is not. It is most important that I speak my own truth. I strive to always live from my heart. My intentions are always good.

I believe the strongest relationships are those that will stand by you even when things get a little messy. They are the people that will be the most honest with you and will challenge you, and yet be there for you when you need it most, and love you no matter what. They are the people that you feel safest with to fully express all of who you are – your whole, messy, awakening self. That is the kind of person I strive to be. Those are the people I choose to surround myself with.

Some relationships will survive this wild ride we are on, and become deeper, richer and stronger. Some will need to be released to make way for others to come in. It is not for us to judge when that happens, just to trust the process and know that it is all for the highest and best.

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Boundaries


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

A few conversations I have had in the last week or so challenged me to reflect on the whole idea of boundaries and how we view life happening around us.  We create boundaries to define property, or ownership.  This is mine and that’s yours.  This is my country, that’s your country; my yard, your yard, me, you.  It is an illusion of separation.

After a meditation recently, we talked about how when tragic events happen in the world, whether on a small or large scale, we have an opportunity to shift the energy of the experience by responding with love and compassion. Events in the world like 9/11 or major natural disasters like the 2010 earthquake in Haiti, are large scale examples where the response to these events have raised the energetic vibration of the entire planet.   I began to explore this concept on a more personal level.

Prior to this, a good friend expressed concern over a particular situation, and the potential for me to be hurt by another’s actions.  I am grateful for her care and the opportunity it gave me to reflect on this subject.  I know she will be reading this so I write this with the utmost love and respect.

Over the past few months I have had the opportunity to participate in a few Sacred Womyn Workshops.  I talk about the energy of our words and the impact the energy we hold in our body affects us and the world around us.  I talk about learning to live from a place of love and peace and the power of that to heal ourselves and the earth.

When I consider what it means to truly live from a place of love, with love there are no boundaries.  There is no separation.  Everything is a reflection of something within me, including whatever dynamics I experience with another person.  So, I can choose to put up walls to protect myself from those dynamics or I can hold an energy of love and peace.  My partner and I often talk about how in any given moment we can choose to respond to life with fear or love.

This doesn’t mean I should or need to engage in a relationship with someone that has harmed me in some way.  I can choose not to.  If I am holding that energy of love, I will attract situations and people that resonate on the same vibration I am at.  If what I have attracted doesn’t appear to be on the same vibration, is it possible I have attracted it because it is a reflection of some aspect of myself?  If I look at it as a shadow side of myself, I can bring it into harmony with other aspects of my being by shedding light on it and bringing in an energy of love and compassion.

At the same time, if an opportunity presents itself where I can engage in dialogue with someone that may have “hurt” me in some way or treated me badly or has differing beliefs from myself, I can choose to connect with this person from a place of love.  This creates a possibility for transformation for both me and the other person.

I have done a lot of work to break down the walls around my heart.  I am still a work in progress.  Being love and living from that place, requires me to keep my heart open.  It requires me to be vulnerable.  It requires me to be awake to possibility, to risk and to have faith.

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A Circle of Love


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Photo by Dwayne Lindstrom

 

Early one Sunday morning, late in October, I drove out to the Whiteshell to embark on another sacred journey to Tie Creek.  I had a long day of celebrating my brother’s wedding the day before and only had four hours sleep that night.  It didn’t seem to matter.

There were seven of us called to take this journey together.  There was something powerful about this trek that drew us together.  A divine number: seven.  There were four men and three women.  The two hour walk there was filled with inspired conversation and awareness of the beauty that surrounded us.  For me, this time was also an opportunity to meet and get to know a man that has found a special place in my life and my heart.

There is a noticeable shift in the energy when you reach the sounding stone and walk past it through the gateway.  It is almost a feeling of having been transported to another planet or back thousands of years.  One feels a strong sense of peace in this place.  The landscape is different.  We walk on some of the oldest rock on the planet.  It is an ancient, sacred place.

Once inside the fenced area around Tie Creek, we all spread out, exploring the area.  I always take my shoes off and walk barefoot on the rock.  I did this even though it was a cooler day.  I walked to a place I visit and spend time in meditation each time I am there.  I left an offering for the Little People in a spot where others have left shiny objects, coins or other offering items.  The Little People are elemental spirits of the forests.  I can feel them around and hear them moving through the brush when I am there.

We explored some of the petroforms in the area.  One of the main petroforms has three long lines of rock.  It almost looks like a runway.  From the top looking down, my friend Diane explained, the line on the left represented the spiritual path.  The line on the right, which was not a straight line, represented the material path.  The line in the middle, which was shorter, represented living life in between the spiritual and the material world.  There was a larger boulder halfway down on the side of the material path.  There were other lines of rocks expanding beyond this.  Diane and her partner felt this boulder represents a crossroads where one must choose which path they are going to follow.  They had never seen this petroform before but knew some of the teachings behind it.  It was really powerful to gain this new understanding.

After wandering around for a while we all spread out and found places to spend a bit of time in meditation.  I moved around to a few places.  In some areas I felt a strong connection with my heart.  I came to one spot where there was a bit of a dip in the rock and sat down there, in front of a tree.  As I sat there in meditation, I felt some hands on my head, first on the back of my head at the top of my spine and then on my crown.  I felt like I was receiving some sort of attunement.

After a while we came back together for a pipe ceremony.  Three of us smoked our pipes and one was shared with the rest of the group.  A few in the group received their spirit names.  It was a powerful experience for all of us.

We were guided to do a group meditation before departing.  We moved to higher ground.  For the first part of the meditation, we asked the men to stand in the four directions, surrounding the women.  As we began, I raised my arms to acknowledge that I am one with the divine universe and open to receive all the love and abundance of the universe.   The women in the center turned together in each of the four directions, carrying a silent prayer.  We felt so strong, powerful and supported.  The men felt so honored to hold that space for us.

Once we completed this portion, I invited the group to move into a circle.  We connected our energy to the earth and then out to the universe.  We brought the energy of love into our hearts and allowed that to flow through each person in the circle.  We brought that love into the center of the circle and created a wave of energy by moving into the center and out, back in and out until a powerful wave of energy was created.  We released that ball of love energy to be sent around the world and out into the universe.

As we walked away from the gated area, we came upon a flock of small birds.  They were in a circle.  As we approached, they flew up over top of us and spread out.  They were there to carry out that love energy on their wings.  It was a beautiful gift.

There were some powerful connections made that day.  We don’t know what that means for all of us, but we know we were all meant to be there.

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We Are One


June 13th Full Moon - Photo by Leah Schroeder

June 13th Full Moon – Photo by Leah Schroeder

I have just come away from one of the most powerful experiences of my life.  I want to invite those of you reading this post into this circle of love that was created during the four days of the Mother Earth Gathering Womyn of All Nations event held June 12-15th, 2014.  I feel a huge sense of responsibility in the words I choose to express the significance of this experience.

In planning the gathering over the past few months, a group of us involved in organizing held an intention of oneness, love, connection and healing for this event.  We created a powerful bubble to support this experience.  We knew that whoever showed up to be a part of the gathering was there because they were meant to be there.  They were either of the same energetic vibration as we were holding, or they were ready to shift.  We knew those that were not ready or not meant to be there would not be.  We knew this experience was bigger than us as organizers and bigger than the women and men that would participate.  We knew this would be more powerful and further reaching than we could imagine.

This gathering, with maybe 200+ people that were there over the course of a few days, celebrated the sacredness of women.  We acknowledged that we all carry the stories of our past and that the only way for us to heal that is to come together in oneness, to lift each other up, empower each other, to love and honour ourselves and each other.

People came from all over, some not knowing why they were coming but felt compelled to be there.  Women and men came from the east and west.  They travelled across the country with people they had never met before and formed beautiful relationships as they journeyed to and from this sacred place.  One couple from India, who were staying in Toronto, heard about our gathering and took a thirty hour bus ride to be there for a few days before their return to India.  A young man, travelling from Montreal to Winnipeg or Regina to work, had all his belongings stolen and was hitchhiking home.  A group of women heading to the gathering, picked him up and brought him along.  He was given a place to sleep in our compassion tent and food to eat.  It was an incredibly moving experience for him.  I am in awe of the journeys taken to arrive at this gathering.

The first evening, as some of us were sitting around a fire, we witnessed some lights in the skies, in the four directions, that were not stars, satellites, or airplanes.  It is an area known for such sitings, so somehow I expected them to show themselves.  They were also there to join us in their own way.  I am sure I also saw spirit lights from time to time and felt the presence of the “Little People”, as did many other people.

As we prepared for this gathering, we asked for donations for food to feed all those that gathered and money to pay for different expenses associated with holding such an event.  At times we had no idea how everything would come together.  We forged ahead in faith that everything would be taken care of.  In the end all our expenses were paid for.  We had an over flowing abundance of food.  It seemed to keep coming as more and more people showed up. Everyone worked together to create an amazing experience.  Firekeepers  would stay up all night to keep the sacred fire burning throughout the night even through the pouring rain.  We became a community.

Pipe ceremonies would begin each day representing each nation (or roses as we called them – the red rose, black rose, yellow rose & white rose).  Each brought the gifts of their tradition along with the gifts that connect us all.  I was given the honour of leading the white rose pipe ceremony, as I have been asked to become a pipe carrier.  I don’t  know what this calling means yet, but I accept it with honour and deep respect.

I felt the weight of the responsibility to complete the circle for this gathering on the fourth day as we brought our gathering to a close.  I shared from my heart, my story and my vision.  I believe that when we learn to love and honour ourselves and each other, heal ourselves and lift each other up, the earth that is our mother and our home will be healed.  I shared about sounding my voice at the waterfall by the site a few weeks early and encouraged others to find their voice as I am finding mine.  The other women participating in this particular ceremony brought some beautiful songs to share with the group to close our gathering.  As we stood in front of the group, arm in arm, we sang the following words.  The rest of the group joined in singing this song.  It was repeated over and over again.

Love, love, love, love
People we are made for love
Love each other as ourselves
For we are one

I hold all these amazing, beautiful people in my heart with the deepest love and respect.  We have created something very special that is radiating out beyond the sacred space we held for those four days.  Lives have and will continue to be changed, including my own.  I am forever grateful.

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Emotional Triggers


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

Sometimes, you think you have dealt with something and moved past it, and then something happens to trigger emotions that are lying deep below the surface.  There is almost an unreasonable response to the event that triggers these feelings considering how far you have come and yet there it is.  It seems like a lot of people have stuff coming up in need of clearing and healing at this time.

In the last couple of weeks I have experienced this and have been completely unraveled by this set of circumstances.  I have allowed myself to feel my way through this, feeling pain, sometimes anger, and for a brief time, wondering where I belong in this world.  Reaching out to my close friends brings me some comfort and I feel supported and connected.

I realized I needed to spend some time healing these emotions that have come up.  I still have work to do to release judgement and to get past re-living this in my mind trying to figure out what went wrong.  Where did I fail and why wasn’t I enough?  I thought I had already healed and moved past these feelings. This trigger seems to have brought this to the surface to peel away and heal another layer.  I am enough.

I acknowledge the need to focus on all the good in the situation and what gifts I have received from this experience.  Gratitude.  I spend some time writing down all the things I am grateful for with respect to this relationship.

More connections with women follow, with shared experiences and feelings.  I am not alone.

Awareness of the energy of the Full Moon and the Lunar Eclipse, I acknowledge it is a time to let go of those things so I can move forward.  I celebrate the moon.  I meditate.  I set out water to be charged and healed by the moon.  Once the Full Moon is past, I say a blessing, and drink from this healing water. I meditate some more.

The day after the Lunar Eclipse, I pull out some Angel Blessing cards I use to set my focus for the day.  Often I only pull one card.  This morning I feel compelled to pull three.  They are all Angel Daniel cards about clearing judgements, which clearly tells me “Pay attention Leah!”  The blessing cards I pull are Forgiveness, Homecoming, and Kindness.

Forgiveness has to do with forgiving the other and more importantly myself.  Kindness, I believe, has to do with being kind to myself, honoring myself, letting go of judgement and allowing space for self-care and healing.  Homecoming, someone pointed out, has to do with coming back into union with one’s true self.  I have heard this message from other sources.  I believe this is a universal message for this time.

Today is a new day.  I have shifted into a new space and feel strong again.  I am okay.  I am connecting with many different people and finding community in different places.  Many people are experiencing these shifts at this time.  Let us hold each other in love and light as we support each other through all this change.

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The Longest Night


A Winter Night - Photo by Leah Schroeder

A Winter Night – Photo by Leah Schroeder

Today, December 21st, 2013, is the beginning of the Winter Solstice, the longest night. Different cultures celebrate this time in different ways. Some light candles to invite back the light. Others acknowledge the darkness – the grief and sorrow that can accompany this time of year. It is also a time to acknowledge life transitions.

For me, this time has come with mixed emotions. I have spent a fair amount of time in solitude lately and feel that more deeply with many changes in how I celebrate with friends and family as relationships have changed and a few significant people are physically missing from the table.

This has been a year filled with a lot of change – my father passing away, and ending of a significant relationship, job changes, letting go of my financial services business. As we enter into this new season, I acknowledge the darkness, the sadness, the grief that still lingers. At the same time I am grateful for the release of things that no longer serve me and for the opportunity to create space for the new to enter in.

This morning, I participated in an Inka Winter Solstice ceremony (Capa Raymi). We spent 2 1/2 hours around a fire at -26 degrees Celsius, in a beautiful ceremony to welcome and honour the Sun. Each of us added our own personal offerings into a circle of items that were placed in the fire. We sang songs and danced around the fire. We honoured Creator and our connection to all things and acknowledged the importance of caring for all of Creation. It was a beautiful way to begin a new phase in my life.

I have entered into this new era; heart open, open to possibility, open to guidance of Spirit. I step into this new way of being with gratitude for the life lessons, experiences, and people that have helped to shape who I have become, assisting in my awakening as I continue forward on my journey.

I move forward in joy and excitement for the possibilities that lie ahead. I honour who I am in this moment, being present with every experience. In the midst of darkness, there is light and hope. It is a dance as the two play with each other.

As we move forward into this new season, let us acknowledge the dark places in our life, let go of what needs to be released, and welcome in the light.

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Leah Schroeder is a Reiki Master and ThetaHealing® Practitioner, www.lifeforcehealingservices.ca and a Financial Representative. “I was born and raised in Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada. For most of my 47 years this has been and currently is the place I call home. I have been working in Financial Services for the past 17 years educating people about their finances, helping them restructure and reduce debt, invest for the future and properly protect their families. A strong sense that there is something more I am supposed to do in the world, a fascination with energy and a series of intuitive nudges has led me to begin practising Reiki and ThetaHealing®. I have a desire to learn and practise other healing modalities, as well as serve children and empower young women around the world. I am grateful for the opportunity to share my thoughts and stories with you.”