This morning, shortly after this November Super-moon was at her fullest, I woke with my heart being flooded with grief. The grief that flowed up from my heart was both personal and that of the collective consciousness. This grief called me to bring forth all the love and compassion I can carry for myself, for those close to me who are grieving and struggling, and for all of humanity and the earth.
The last while has been a time for me to go inward. Space has been created for me to use this time to recharge and store up my batteries for the work that lies ahead. It has been a time to look at the parts of myself that still need healing; the parts where I have been in judgement of myself or those around me; the parts where I have failed to stand strongly in my light to empower myself and in turn those I interact with; where I have failed to fully and deeply love myself, and allow that love to flow out to those around me who need it the most. Today, I love all of those parts of myself.
I spent some time in the woods yesterday. It was an opportunity for some nature therapy and time to refuel. As I was walking beside a small lake, a doe emerged out of the woods, grazing in the tall grass beside the path. She was oblivious to my presence there. My eyes were drawn to a point further along the path, where a large buck appeared and moved toward me. As the doe walked towards the edge of the water to drink and continue grazing, the buck came closer, standing between the doe and the path. He took a solid stance, strong and confident. We watched each other for a few moments, neither of us moving. When the buck heard someone coming from the other direction, the two of them bolted into the woods. After the person passed me, the buck appeared to me again. We moved parallel to each other for a short time until he crossed my path and disappeared into the woods on the other side of me.
There was a gift and a message for me in this brief encounter. As I reflect on this and the energy that has been building over the past few months, again both personally and collectively, I look further into what their appearance might mean for me.
The doe exemplified the divine feminine, representing love, nourishment, surrender, connection. The buck represented the divine masculine, demonstrating authority, protection and strength. Together, they moved in harmony with each other and their surroundings. I feel drawn to bring into balance both aspects within myself and my relationships.
This morning, as I was feeling the grief emerging, I allowed myself to sit with those feelings briefly and then moved into a time of meditation and ceremony. The energy of this full moon is bringing in a new strength and resolve with in me. The grief is replaced with a powerful, deep love and compassion.
I am being called at this time to hold space. A definition of this, presented to me a couple of weeks ago, is as follows: “It means that we are willing to walk alongside another person in whatever journey they’re on without judging them, making them feel inadequate, trying to fix them, or trying to impact the outcome. When we hold space for other people, we open our hearts, offer unconditional support, and let go of judgement and control”.
As more light pours in and wells up inside us to bring our gifts out into the world, subconscious beliefs come to the surface to be healed. Like a wound, sometimes it looks worse before it looks better. Sometimes we repeat old patterns if we aren’t willing or ready to release those beliefs or karmic imprints and move through them. This is happening both on individual and collective levels. We are at a crossroads and have a choice as to how we move forward.
So in this moment I choose, filled with the love of the divine, completely surrounded and supported with the light of love, to act as a vessel, holding space both for those closest in my life and for all of humanity. I send out prayers of love and compassion to the people in my life who are struggling. I send out prayers of love to all those gathered at and supporting the people of Standing Rock, who are called there to protect the water and teach us to walk in harmony with the earth. I send out prayers of love and gratitude to the water and to the earth. I send out prayers and love to all parts of the world where there is conflict. I send prayers and love to all those living in fear or pain. I send out prayers and love to world leaders and the systems that have created imbalance in our world. As the unraveling begins, I send out prayers and love to carry the whole as a new consciousness and way of walking on this earth emerges. I dig deep within to draw upon all the strength and power of the sacred feminine, to fill myself up with as much love as my being is able to contain and pour out from me.
In meditation today, words of trust and patience were presented to me. I surrender and trust that whatever happens from this point forward will be in the highest good for all. I invite you to join me in holding space and sending out love and compassion. The larger the vessel we create together, the stronger that love will ripple out to raise the vibration of the collective consciousness, to heal and shift humanity.
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Leah Schroeder is a Reiki Master, Integrated Energy Therapy® Master-Instructor, and ThetaHealing® Practitioner, www.lifeforcehealingservices.ca . “I was born and raised in Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada. For most of my life this has been and currently is the place I call home. I spent 17 years working in Financial Services. A strong sense that there is something more I am supposed to do in the world, a fascination with energy and a series of intuitive nudges have led me to begin practising Reiki, ThetaHealing®, and IET®. I have a desire to learn, practice, and teach other healing modalities, empowering others to help shift the consciousness of humanity. I am grateful for the opportunity to share my thoughts and stories with you.”