Relationships In This Time Of Awakening


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

Relationships at the best of times can have their challenges to navigate whether they are with family, friends or the more intimate relationship with one’s partner.

Maybe it’s just me, but it feels the closer I am with people, the more intense relationship dynamics are at this time. As more light flows in, and shadows are exposed, the more things come to the surface to be healed. Generally, people seem more sensitive, including myself, and sometimes that can create friction or resistance and some challenging circumstances to work through.

I have experienced on occasion, the use, or choice, of words being challenged or misunderstood. Everyone has a different understanding of the words or phrases we use. This can at times lead to misunderstanding. This is particularly true via social media. When we speak directly with each other, via phone or face to face, we hear the tone of voice or see into the others eyes and have a greater understanding of the heart, or intent behind the words used.

I am human. I have emotion. Sometimes things anger or frustrate me. Other times I feel great joy and passion for the beauty of life around me. Sometimes I feel pain and sadness. Other times I feel in a place of peace and calm. I often feel what others around me feel and sometimes get caught up in their energy. If I see a situation where it appears that someone is being treated unfairly or is misunderstood, I will often stand up for them. My truest nature is gentleness and kindness and I do my best to allow that to be what radiates out from me and what others see in me. More and more I am learning through all those different emotions, to feel love and gratitude for myself and allow that to fill me up and flow out from me.

The expression of these emotions is also part of my awakening. For most of my life I have suppressed my feelings. Having the courage to express myself, even if the person I am sharing my feelings with may not receive this well, is important. Their response or reaction may be a reflection of where they are at in their own process. I do my best to do this from a place of love. I am still figuring out who in my life it is safe to do that with and who it is not. It is most important that I speak my own truth. I strive to always live from my heart. My intentions are always good.

I believe the strongest relationships are those that will stand by you even when things get a little messy. They are the people that will be the most honest with you and will challenge you, and yet be there for you when you need it most, and love you no matter what. They are the people that you feel safest with to fully express all of who you are – your whole, messy, awakening self. That is the kind of person I strive to be. Those are the people I choose to surround myself with.

Some relationships will survive this wild ride we are on, and become deeper, richer and stronger. Some will need to be released to make way for others to come in. It is not for us to judge when that happens, just to trust the process and know that it is all for the highest and best.

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A New Song


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

The last few months, being back in Winnipeg after my summer in Sioux Narrows, Ontario, has brought about a flurry of activity.  I have been in a space of organizing, and creating the next phase of my life.  It has been challenging adjusting to the different energy of the city compared to the peace of the natural setting that was my home for three months.

I had a sense that this would be the case, so I pre-planned an outing to the sacred space of Bannock Point and the Petroforms.  It is a place that I continue to be drawn to and it was calling me back.  I have now been back to this sacred site a few times since my return to Winnipeg.

On this particular visit, early in September, I was introduced to the petroform of a creation story.  It is a depiction of a woman, Sky Woman, being lowered from the stars, pregnant with the first Red Nation male to walk this earth.  It was in a slightly out of the way place, away from the other petroforms and protected by the trees and terrain around it, and yet, it was meant to be found.  I placed an offering of tobacco and a coin, alongside other offerings left there, and said a brief prayer.

I headed to the Medicine Wheel, where I removed my sandals.  I walked slowly around the outside of the wheel.  At one entrance I noticed offerings of tobacco, coins and a variety of other objects.  Again, I said a prayer, offered tobacco and a coin and continued on to complete the walk around the circle.  I walked through one of the entrances to the Medicine Wheel, placed a circle of cedar around me, smudged with sage, sweetgrass and cedar and began a time of meditation. I placed my feet and hands directly on the rock beneath me.

As I do every time I come here, I knelt on the rock and held my forehead against it for a while, connecting my third eye with the energy of the earth.  I spent some time sending love and healing to the earth, holding my arms straight above me with my palms facing the sky.  Then continuing to hold my left arm up, I lowered my right arm with my right palm facing the earth.  I experienced a powerful wave of energy flowing through me.  I sent love and healing out as I repeated these motions in all four directions.

I took my time walking around the area, discovering petroforms I hadn’t seen before, enjoying the small discoveries of mushrooms, wild flowers, and berries.  I found a patch of wild blueberries and enjoyed a small snack.  I picked some kinnickinnik, bunch berries, rosehips and juniper berries.

I drove from this place to the waterfall, by the Womyn’s Gathering site.  I sounded my voice there as I had in the Spring.  This time, there was no need to yell or release any pain or anger.  All that came out was a sweet song from my heart; a gift to the water, the trees, and the elemental spirits of the forest, known as the Little People.

I have come a long way in a year, from experiencing the pain of having my heart cracked wide open a year ago and feeling deep grief, to learning to love myself, reclaiming my voice and finding my power.  I have awakened my passion and taken great leaps towards my soul’s calling.  I have come to a place of peace within.  This sacred place that keeps calling me home has also brought me home to myself.

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As Summer Nears Its End


Photo by Leah Schroeder

Photo by Leah Schroeder

By the time this is posted, I will be back in the Winnipeg for the fall.  It is hard to imagine leaving this place, now that I have been here almost three months.  It has been my refuge, my healing place.  This has been a time for me to focus on self-care so that I am better equipped to assist others with their healing.

Before I chose to come to here, I felt a need to create some space to give some of the work that I feel called to do some time to gel.  That has been a positive choice for me as there are all kinds of opportunities and blessings flowing my way.

I still have more healing to do, but I am stronger, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.  I feel more at peace with myself.  I have released anger, resentment and residual pain.  I still have people around me from time to time that attempt to pull me I to their drama, but I am getting better at removing myself from this fairly quickly.  I am learning to send them love and continue to hold a vibration of love and peace.  They show up to teach me.  I have met many women in the last few months that carry a lot of pain in their lives.  They are shifting, each at their own pace.  I send them love to hold them where ever they are at.

I have embraced connecting with the earth and water around me.  I am certain, throughout the fall and winter I will continue to be drawn to places outside the city where I can spend time connecting with nature.  I am less attached to the place that has been my home for the past seven years, or the city that has been my home for most of my life.

I have found great joy in walking barefoot in the grass, sending healing energy to the earth and receiving powerful healing energy from her in return.  I have had many opportunities to interact with the deer around me, watched turtles lay eggs, experienced an abundance of frogs and grasshoppers enjoying the yard around me, and watched dragonflies dance in the evening sky.  I have spent time embracing and celebrating the light of the full moon, watched in wonder as the night sky lit up with stars.  I have breathed in the fresh air, filled with the scent of pine and fir trees.  I have listened to the song of the wind in the trees and of crickets, frogs, loons, other birds, and water lapping against the shore.

I have replaced the fear of how my body reacts to the food I eat, with joy, gratitude, and pleasure.  It has given me a great deal of satisfaction to forage for wild edibles and add them to my diet.  I have more appreciation for and connection to where my food comes from.  I have learned what it feels like to really enjoy my food and understand how that impacts my body. I have observed the physical changes in my being as I have become more conscious of what I eat and of my physical activity.

To be clear, my focus has been on healing and returning to balance and not on my weight or appearance.  I love and accept myself as I am in whatever form or shape that is.  I have learned to see myself as a sacred woman and my body as the sacred vessel that holds my spirit.

What an amazing gift this summer has been!  I am deeply grateful.  It is soon coming to an end.  The weather is starting to shift.  The winds of change are blowing.  I surrender to the wind, to the flow of the river and to the voice of my soul calling me.  I have yet to understand the magnitude of what I have been preparing for or what lies ahead.

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Lessons From A Challenging Journey


Morning Fog off Rennie River - Photo by Leah Schroeder

Morning Fog off Rennie River – Photo by Leah Schroeder

During the Womyn’s Gathering I participated in recently, a group of us hiked to a sacred site called Tie Creek.  I wrote about this place last year.

It was a difficult trek.  It is approximately 10 km each way.  We left before lunch and I didn’t have time to pack much to eat.  I had some flax crackers, sunflower seeds and a bottle of water.

We gathered on the bridge over the waterfall and began our journey through a forested area. There were a lot of Mosquitos.  We had to walk fast to keep from being bitten.  It was a warm day, but long pants and sweaters were needed for protection from the bugs.

More than 3/4’s of the way to Tie Creek, we arrived at what is known as the Sounding Stone.  It is like a gateway to Tie Creek.  There are two large boulders that mark this entrance,  the first one is the Sounding Stone.  Here, an offering of tobacco is placed and a prayer made to set the intention for one’s visit to this sacred place.  It is said when you clap on the rock with your hand or another rock, if it doesn’t sound, you don’t have permission to proceed.  When it sounds, particularly when using a small rock, it almost sounds like the beat of a large drum.  This can also be considered an announcement of your presence, to let the spirits know you are on your way.

From this point, our journey became a bit more challenging.  I felt we needed to turn to the left, but others felt the obvious path to the right was the correct way to go.   Maybe there are a few ways to get to our destination.  We followed this path, and part way through waded through a boggy area, followed by a short open area & then came to the entrance of more forest.  This didn’t feel right.  We turned around and went all the way back to the Sounding Stone to search for another way.  We looked along the tree line to the left, but couldn’t see an opening for a path.  I knew there was a reason we were finding this so challenging.

We followed the first path again, continuing to search along the tree line for an opening.  The guide and I went ahead to see if we could find the right way, but ended up turning back.  It was quite warm out and everyone was getting tired.  We must have been walking back and forth from the Sounding Stone for about half an hour.  We went back to the Sounding Stone one more time.  This time I walked closer to the tree line.  There was a lot of dead trees fallen over.  I stood in front of one fallen tree and looked beyond it through the trees.  This time the path showed itself to me.  I could see through to the other side where there was rocky ground.  This is what I was looking for.

Several people had turned around and went back to the gathering site by this time. There were still 15 of us who continued on.  When we got to the fence that surrounds Tie Creek – a 10-12′ high chain link fence with barbed wire around the top and bottom (no one has a clear explanation as to why this sacred place needs this – something the government put up).  We didn’t have a key, so we found a spot where there was enough of an opening between the bottom of the fence and the ground.  A few of us held up the fence and one person held up the barbed wire, as people shimmied under the fence.

I walked to the top of the rock, and took off my wet socks and shoes, to connect directly to the powerful healing energy of this ancient rock.  I encouraged others to do the same.  I wandered around for a while, trying to find the same spot I meditated last year, a spot where there are offerings left for the little people of the forest – shiny objects, like beads, a little chair, a little metal bucket.  I left some sunflower seeds and a tobacco offering.

I sat down on the rock, to spend some time in meditation.  I could feel the presence of the little people.  They were watching me.  I could hear them rustling in the woods.  I may have even heard them singing and drumming.  After a short time, I began to sound my voice, toning whatever notes felt like emerging from within.  A couple of times, on my hands and knees, bent down to connect my third eye with the rock beneath me.  Some bees buzzing around me, let me know when my meditation time was complete.  I went back to the top of the rock to wait for the others.

When we were ready to leave, I got everyone to form a circle and we created an energy wave that we sent out to the gathering and to the rest of the world.

When we left this space, and got back to the Sounding Stone, we offered tobacco and said a prayer to thank Spirit before continuing on our way back to the gathering.  The forest seemed extra thick with mosquitoes as we moved quickly through this part of the journey.

When I arrived back at the gathering site and shared the story of our journey, I was reminded that likely the reason we had such a hard time finding the path by the Sounding Stone, is because those that got tired and turned around to go back, likely weren’t ready to journey to Tie Creek.  It wasn’t their time to be there. It was a good lesson for us to recognize this. We also learned the importance of trusting our intuition. Everything happened as it was meant to.

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Shaking Things Up


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A few weeks ago, the day I realized one of my sources of income had come to an end, I discovered an ad for a position that would take me a few hours east of Winnipeg to lake country, to Sioux Narrows, Ontario.  I applied for it on a whim, thinking a change of scenery would do me some good.

Here I am a few weeks later, sitting on the dock by the lake, clean air filled with the scent of fir, pine, birch and poplar.  Bird song fills the air.  As I sit here I watch a few eagles fly by.  There were some mallard ducks by the end of the dock when I came down, and I believe I am hearing the song of a loon.

On my trip out, a few miles from here, I saw a fox, swerved to miss a turtle crossing the road, and saw a deer.  I passed by cliffs of granite, lakes, more lakes, and forest.  The place that I will call home for the summer backs onto some forest area.  I already had a couple of deer come by to welcome me and saw another one in my yard this afternoon.  We visited a bit through my kitchen window.  They look a bit splotchy grey at the moment as they are still shedding their winter coat.

When the water warms up a bit more, I will make a habit of a daily swim in the lake.  Maybe I will find someone to teach me to kayak or someone to join me on a canoe ride once in a while.  I would love to explore the shorelines of the lakes in the area and find some of the waterfalls.

Aside from the fact that I have come to a place that is a little slice of heaven, why would I put almost everything else on hold to come out here?  I often have yearnings to get out of the city to feel connected with nature.  I have been craving a change of scenery.  Usually, I am drawn to a sacred site in the Whiteshell.  I will have my time there next week when the women gather.

I have a lot of beautiful things starting to brew with my healing practice.  I decided it would be healthy for me to allow some space for them to gel over the next few months.  It is also a good opportunity for me to do some self-care, to be in the best possible place by the fall for all of that to happen.  Other obligations seemed to have found a way of working themselves out.

It gets me away from distractions, so I can focus on healing, finish editing my book, so it will be ready for publishing shortly.  It breaks me away from what is routine, “the usual” for me.  I think it is good to shake things up a bit every now and then. It opens doors for new opportunities, self-discovery, and awakening.

This is a peaceful place to be.  I believe my work here at this resort will be at fairly relaxed pace.  Maybe opportunities to offer Reiki here will present themselves too.

As I sit here by the water, looking over the lake to take in the beauty I see in front of me, all I can say, is “How does it get any better than this?”

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Taking Steps to Embrace My Soul’s Calling


I Am Loved - Photo by Leah Schroeder

I Am Loved – Photo by Leah Schroeder

I just completed a weekend of taking an Integrated Energy Therapy® course, basic to advanced certification.  It was an amazing experience.  Angelic energy is such a beautiful, loving energy to play and work with.  It is also very high frequency so I have been taking it easy for a couple of days, allowing my being to adjust to the energy.

I recall at one point during the course mentioning that I am doing things in my life right now that I love to do, but that I am still in the process of discovering what I am truly passionate about (or something to that effect).  I mentioned something similar in a previous blog post.

After the last day of the class, when I went home and looked at and connected with the energy of the vision board I had just created, I realized I already know what my passions are.  Certainly I am still in the process of bringing them all together in a way that is a unique expression of me, but what I also realized is the true reason I was not fully embracing this had more to do with a fear of fully putting myself out there – of being seen.  I was shying away from fully standing in my power and allowing my light to shine. I recognize this had more to do with my sense of self-worth than lack of passion for what I do.

I trust that much of this has been released this past weekend and will continue to be released as I step forward. I am taking steps every day to move in the direction of my soul’s calling.  At this point, I have some idea of what my life plans are for the next month.  Beyond that, lie blank pages of a life book waiting to be written.

This would create a lot of anxiety in many people.  For me, it is very freeing.  I trust that the road in front of me will be revealed as I continue to move forward.  I trust that my needs will be met.  I trust that what I placed on my vision board is manifesting into my life. I set the intention a few months ago to complete a particular project this Spring without knowing how I would find the means to make it happen.  I realized this week I already have the resources available to me to complete this. I am drawn to opportunities to learn and expand my awareness.

I know I am cared for.  Earlier this week, as I was driving home from a friends place I stopped at an intersection of a major road.  The traffic light changed to green and so I proceeded forward.  All of a sudden a pick-up truck coming from the other direction decided to turn right in front of me.  I slammed on my brakes and was sure I was going to hit them.

By purely divine intervention (really no surprise because I had been working with angels all weekend and I know they are around me) the truck manage to get past enough that I didn’t hit them.  I am sure I only missed them by an inch.

As I waited in the median of this major road a woman pulled up beside me to ask me if I was okay.  I said I was, thanked her and continued on.  Her asking me if I was okay brought me out of the shock I was in at that moment.  I am grateful for that exchange with her.

So when there might be moments of doubt, there are always lessons that show up as reminders.  Whether it is something dramatic, like my driving story, or an email that brings a gift or affirmation that is in alignment with the things I am passionate about, there are always opportunities presenting themselves.  It really comes down to letting go, trusting and acting on intuitive nudges.

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The Little Seed by Guest Blogger Anneliese Pennycook


The Little Seed PictureThe Little Seed

in earth before unearthed
waiting for the Sun to shine
waiting for the snow to melt
waiting for the rains to come
waiting
waiting to grow
then break free
from your shell
that small shell you came from
from the ground
that force that keeps you down
and your roots keep you there
planted
but you strive for air
that breath of fresh air
that single hope
that you’ll be
more than just a seed
that hope
breaks rocks
chokes weeds
never knowing what you’ll be
just the drive To Be
is Hope enough
to set you free
from being
just
a
little
seed.

The Unveiling by anneliese pennycook

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