Answering the Call


– Photo by Leah Schroeder

All it takes is one action of following an intuitive nudge to entirely shift one’s life.  Sometimes it is a thought that enters into one’s consciousness.  Other times it might be a suggestion or idea presented by someone else, planting the seed of change.

A few years ago, that seed was planted for me.  At the time, the suggestion was not a direction I was open to.  A year and a half ago, something shifted in my life and the suggestion was made again.  This time I was ready for it.  The past year and a half I have been taking step by step actions in preparation for a major life change.

In a few days, I will be getting in my vehicle, leaving my life behind in Winnipeg, the city of my birth, and moving to the mountains, to an area I have never visited.  I have shed many of my possessions, keeping those items that have the most meaning for me at this time, or what I will use regularly, keeping in mind that I wish to create a life where I can build a tiny home or small cabin, garden and create what I need to sustain myself.  It has been a very freeing process to let go of stuff.

I have approached this process from a place of honouring the connections I have in the city I grew up in, and the sacred places that have hugely impacted my life. I have brought closure to different parts of my life and/or relationships that had unfinished or unresolved aspects to them.  There has been the opportunity for healing for both myself and others in this process.  By the time I leave, there will be nothing left unsaid or unfinished.

A beautiful thing I have observed as I began the process of transitioning out of my businesses and life in Winnipeg, is seeing that leaving has created space for others to flourish and step up to honouring their gifts and they accept the call to carry on the work I was doing here.  That has applies to my healing practise, bookkeeping and administrative work, and family roles.  It gives me a great deal of joy to see how other people are benefiting from this change.

When the idea first came to me, I thought I would be waiting until my mother had passed on.  There came a point where I realized I couldn’t keep putting my life on hold, waiting for that time.  She and I have had somewhat of a co-dependent relationship for the past several years, especially since my dad transitioned.  As much as I wanted for her to be the one to let go first, it needed to be me.  It has been important for me to make the tough choices to move towards what is calling me.  There are a few people in my life that are hard to leave, but I know with every fibre of my being that this is what I need to do.  I trust that this and whatever happens for everyone connected to me in some way, that this is in the highest and best for all.  It isn’t just about me or what I want.

Often people ask me what I will be doing when I get to that area in the mountains, or where specifically I will be.  I don’t have a lot of answers.  I know I will be essentially homeless next week.  I will stay with my younger sister for a week.  I will spend a couple of months on a few different organic farms, gardening and helping out with whatever is needed, in exchange for room and board.  This will be an opportunity to create some space to allow the new to enter in and to connect with the land that will become my home. I will continue on with the healing work that I do and likely the bookkeeping or administrative work in some capacity.  I know my role as a lightworker will expand and change and that more will be revealed to me when I get to the area I am heading to.

I am at peace.  I feel deep gratitude for this place that has been my home for the past 52 years and for all the people that have come and gone from my life that have shaped my journey, as well as all of those who are currently in my life that have encouraged and supported this move.  I feel deeply blessed.  I am excited to explore the unknown and discover what lies ahead. I am looking forward to meeting all the souls that will be there with me through this next phase of life.

It has been interesting observing people I connect with before I go.  I have expressed to a few people that it is almost as if I am dying. I am honoured to have been able to touch so many people in such a way that they would feel that.  My life has equally been touched by each one of them.

There is a saying that has followed me since I was a teenager that I am reminded of as I get ready to leave.  “When you come to the edge of all the light you know, and step out into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing you will have something solid to land on, or you will learn to fly.”  It is time for me to fly.

Blessings to each of you, who have touched my life, and have been a part of shaping who I am.  I have so much love and gratitude in my heart for each one of you.

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Honouring My Sisters – Reflecting On Where I Am Five Years Later


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Five years have flown by since this blog first began.  So many things have shifted over that time for each of us on a personal level and also for the collective.  There have been many times over the past five years when I felt I was in a birthing canal, with a new or more authentic version of myself emerging.

Once again I am in the space of birthing.  I am listening to my soul’s calling, diving deeper.  The last few months have been challenging and uncomfortable, and yet, I keep putting one foot in front of the other.  I am cocooning, distancing myself from what others want from me, slowly breaking the chains of old contracts and the old self, at times gasping for air and fighting for my freedom.  And then, I let go and allow myself to move in flow with the waves of intense energy flooding in.  I am learning to follow the song of my inner voice. I am shedding the old paradigm, sitting in the in-between space as the metamorphosis takes place until I am ready to emerge on the other side, completely transformed.

I have glimpses of what is coming and where I will go, but the picture is not fully formed yet.  I am okay with not knowing what that looks like.  I surrender to the river that is carrying me forward.  I trust this river to hold me, to support me, and to lead me closer to the essence of who I am and to the core of my divine calling.

I am blessed to have so many amazing women in my life.  There are those who have been in my life for many years.  There are a few that have come into my life in the last short while to assist me with this shift I am in the midst of,  and for us to support each other and share in work we are being called to do.  They are my soul sisters, my mothers, the midwives supporting me through this birthing process I am moving through, my teachers, and those I have had the gift of passing on what I have learned. I, in turn, have the opportunity to serve in the same way for them.

I send love and gratitude to you, for your presence here, and your place in my life, as we continue to lift each other up, and together raise the vibration of the planet and shift the consciousness of humanity. Blessings to you. Namaste.

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Entering into the Year of the Horse


Image courtesy of Tina Phillips / FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Image courtesy of Tina Phillips / FreeDigitalPhotos.net

January 31st, 2014.  Today is my 48th birthday.  It is also Chinese New Year – The Year of the Horse.  This is my year.  I have just been through and continue to be in the midst of great change.  What adventures lie ahead?

I am grateful for all the lessons of the past year to year and a half, and yet I am glad to be moving into a different phase of life.  I am not sure yet if a more peaceful time of stability is on the horizon, but I trust that whatever comes, I will be ready for it and it will be something even better than I can imagine.

This last month has been a time of sticking close to home and doing a lot of self-care.   It feels like it was something that has been imposed upon me and yet a friend suggested that maybe it was simply a challenge to spend some time looking after myself for a change.  With a cold virus that decided to stick around for a few weeks and brought me to ring in the New Year spending a few days on my couch, and a major skin irritation that my doctor believes to be eczema caused by some allergic reaction – to what I have yet to determine, I have certainly been challenged.

I have had the opportunity to explore various natural remedies for the cold virus, all of which helped to varying degrees.  Eventually the virus moved on.  While my immune system was busy with addressing the cold, the skin irritation developed on my upper body.  Some things I tried brought minor relief, while others, created more irritation. I spent some time doing Reiki and ThetaHealing® on myself.   I found some relief taking baths with a tea made with cedar, Labrador leaf and Wekay root (also known as Rat Root or Calamus Root) added to the water along with Himalayan salt, some aluminum free baking soda, and a few of my favourite essential oils.  It helped calm the irritation and was a good time for some meditation. In the end, some medical intervention was needed to give me enough relief to function more normally.

This process has certainly brought me to be aware of my physical self.  I have also explored the question, “What is it, on a subconscious level that is triggering these health challenges?”  It has provided a bit of a transitional break as I have let go of various aspects of my life and am shifting into the new.  Now, as I continue to heal, my focus has shifted more onto where do I go from here?

Last night, I chose to bring in this new phase of life – the evening of the Super New Moon and Chinese New Year’s Eve, attending a meditation, which I often do on Thursday evenings.  During the drumming part of the meditation, I chose to drift into a journey to visit with my power animals.  I received some helpful guidance during that time.  For the first time, I detached from the drumming and it took on a life of its own.  The intensity of the drumming in the room brought me back as this part of the meditation came to an end.

The next part of the meditation was the toning.  During this time, I felt a different energy around me.  It almost felt like someone was brushing from my head to my shoulders, my back and my arms with feathers.  Actually, it felt more like wings – of an angel.

This time was followed by playing of Crystal bowls and then silent meditation.  While the bowls were being played, there were some strange sounds.  A few people commented on this after.  To me it almost sounded like a few times someone was scratching some metal or something sharp against the bowls.  It was an uncomfortable sound.   There were other gifts from Spirit presented throughout the evening.

Every meditation is different and I leave this sacred space with different feelings.  Sometimes I leave with a feeling of incredible joy.  Other times something else has shifted within me creating a release of tears as I make my way home.  This was my experience last night.

The tears carried into this morning.  What a way to start my birthday!  It may be a combination of the shifting energy of this moment in time and within me, coupled with some hormonal shifts.  I was experiencing a moment of feeling somewhat disconnected from everyone in my life and feeling unsure of myself and the path I am on.

Spending time in a healing bath and a lot of time in meditation today – along with a few phone calls from people close to me has brought me back into feeling connected again.

I am stepping into the unknown.  It is important for me at this time to be open to the teachers that present themselves, but more importantly to really begin to trust, honour and pay attention to the voice within me.  I am shedding the old skin, the old story of who I am.   I have ideas of what the road ahead might look like, but I am honestly still in the process of awakening the gifts within me and finding my soul’s calling.  I am still finding my voice and haven’t quite discovered how best to use it.  Is it through writing?  Is it through healing work or teaching others?  Is there something else waiting to emerge?

I listened to a Webinar recently that talked about bringing together all the parts of your life that bring you joy and forming it into a business that is uniquely you and expresses the essence of who you are.  It is an intriguing concept that is still swimming around in my head and my heart and I am sure will for some time until it jells into something that fits for me.

And so a new year of my life begins.  Although there is uncertainty, I enter it in peace.  I move forward with anticipation of what great treasures I will discover along the way.

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Lessons in Becoming Less Attached to ‘Things’.


I have always wanted to be surrounded by beauty. By beautiful things especially. I like interior design. I have always been attracted to rich ethnic prints and deep wall colours. I like each room in a house to have its own theme and ambiance. I have been craving a ‘place of my own’ for a long time. Since my late teens I have only ever lived in rented accommodation – but sometimes for years on end, during which time I accumulated a lot of things. I painted and decorated and bought and arranged. And more often than not took a deep sense of pride in my home. More recently, in the last house I lived in, I went through the dark night of my soul. I had been hating that house for a while, for various reasons. They do say the state of your house can be reflective of the state of your mind and in this case, I had fallen out with myself and given up on the beauty. Part of my healing was to clear the house of clutter and to fill it with love, my bedroom in this house especially became a sacred space for me, with my altar, my vision board, and my feng shuied love corner.  I also have a large collection of books and beautiful paintings which give me so much pleasure, and as an academic books are vital to my profession.

Six months ago however, I made the decision to give up this house and to move in with my parents for a temporary period. I got rid of so much stuff. It was epic. We must have made at least 20 visits to the local recycling and waste amenity. It was like a purging of everything I had accumulated. Of course I kept my paintings and books, and some key items of furniture. But really, myself and my two children moved into my parents with a van load between us. It was a huge exercise in down sizing.

I now find myself in a situation where I am between homes, between countries. I have a room and a desk and books and my computer, but I hardly know where a lot of my ‘things’ are and I have no house to call my own. I have no rooms, living rooms, bedrooms, to fill up, to decorate to invest in. This is coming. It’s in the pipeline. Indeed, two houses may be in the pipeline. In two very different countries, but they will both be my home.

While I am looking forward to nesting again, and filling my homes with beautiful things, these past six months have been a huge lesson in letting go of attachment to ‘things’. I have felt displaced and at sea on occasion, even mildly panicked that I am not grounded and rooted in a particular dwelling. But each time I try to root down to my sense of belonging to the earth, the planet, the universe, rather than a specific house or country even. I felt a huge sense of liberation when I left my long term house six months ago, I felt freer than ever. And at times I still do. It may sound like a cliché  but the world is my home and it’s more to do with the sun and the sea and the particular light on a particular evening, and the people I love, than a house, than any ‘thing’.

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The Merging of the Human and the Divine


What I am learning right now is: Being human is divinity itself.

I used to think, being ‘spiritual’ meant constant meditation, abstinence, perfection almost. No anger, no bad moods, no indulgence.

Being spiritual meant healthy diet, being calm and peaceful all the time. Supreme kindness, serenity. Exercise, alkaline diet. Reading spiritual books and literature.

I still believe all those things. But I am more inclined to also believe, we are human! The goddess herself is sexy, voluptuous, she may drink too much wine on occasion, she may swear and argue. She knows how to apologise. She is not ego centric. She is simply being. Like me.

Doing my best to learn and grow and be the best that I can be, and most importantly continuing to love myself, even when I fall.

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Here and There


‘There’ is no better than ‘here’. When your ‘there’ has become ‘here’ you will simply obtain another ‘there’ that will again look better than ‘here’.

My ‘here’ is better now than it used to be. In many ways the ‘there’ that I dreamed of has manifested. This year I got engaged, moved to America and completed a massive personal career goal.

Walking along an incredibly beautiful country road in Wisconsin on a summer evening at dusk, with fireflies zipping through the grass and the sun blazing and sweeping across the perfect sky, holding hands with my fiancé, I could really say, I am here. This is it. Nothing can top this. I hope to experience other days and moments as beautiful as this, but this is perfection. This is it. One of those moments when the present moment is supreme. I experience these moments more than I used to, but they still amaze me. The trick is to make the present moment supreme even at times that are not so ‘perfect’ and awe-inspiring.

Having said that  – in manifesting and achieving many things that in my old ‘here’ seemed out of reach, or dreamlike – the future expands before me and I see another ‘there’. I have different goals and aims, I have plans, I have ‘obstacles’ to overcome. I have to find ways to live the life I want, to facilitate my plans and further realize my ambitions. Once one dream comes to fruition, another one is in the pipeline. I am not sure we ever arrive at a destination. There will always be a here and a there.

While I truly believe we can improve our lives and circumstances, I also believe once we do it, our reality shifts and we adapt, we can even adapt to paradise.

I imagine when I find myself in the most beautiful house of my dreams, I will adapt to it very quickly. My modest terraced/ semi-detached homes and apartments just fading into the distance as I expand into my ‘here’. I know this because I have been fortunate enough to find myself in some very beautiful locations, some very beautiful houses. And quickly this awe inspiring beauty becomes normal.

The past summer is a wonderful example of this. Living in Chicago, spending time in the incredible beauty of the mid-western country side, while I remained in appreciation and gratitude, I could see it quickly became normal. Now that I am days away from leaving and returning to Ireland for several months, it is less normal, and I see everything through fresh eyes again, with longing and desire. I face challenges too. With great dreams coming true we can also face great challenges. In my experience it is always worth it. I have grown and expanded so much this summer. Still there is another there. More and more there’s, and so the masterpiece is built, the cathedral, the work of art. Your life.

The lesson for me is to enjoy the here as much as possible, while always keeping an eye on the there. You will get there. Enjoy being here.

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There is a crack in everyone, That’s where the light gets in.


Having recently become engaged to a wonderful man, I have been basking in the joy of love and commitment. I have spent a large proportion of my adult life as a single mother. Various failed relationships. The wrong man, the wrong time.

Many times I had heard the phrase, ‘if you don’t love yourself first, no one else can truly love you either.’ But I had never really understood what it meant. How is that so? Of course you can be truly loved, look at all those people who are happily married and they never had to go on a spiritual journey of self-love. If they can have it, why can’t I? And yet when I reached one of the lowest points in my life most recently, I finally got it – I have to look inside, deep, deep inside and really sort this out. I became hungry for knowledge of a spiritual nature. I fell in love with myself first and then attracted someone I call my soul mate.

Something that delights me about this life is that, when one dream comes true, be that your true love, your big achievement, your new home, we quickly want to move on to the next big thing…the next dream.  Before these things manifested in your life, they seemed impossible. Once they are achieved, we expand, and our reality shifts, and they become part of our ‘normal’ life. Quickly our lover, fiance, husband, can become normal and even mundane. The little things we once thought were sweet idiosyncrasies can become annoying and jarring. We start to criticise and look for weaknesses and failures. Rather than go here, it is important to remain in gratitude as much as possible. Every day.

Like everything else in life I am finding that a long-term committed relationship involves work and spiritual practice. I can choose to see my beloved through eyes of love and kindness, or eyes of impatience and mistrust. A long-term relationship or marriage is made up of a lot of forgiveness and compromise. I believe that two people must be truly compatible, but it takes an understanding and an acceptance of each other’s dark side, failures and weaknesses, in order to truly celebrate each other’s greatness.

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*This article was assisted by Arielle Ford’s book, Wabi Sabi love, and the title is taken from Leonard Cohen.

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