I wrote this poem a few weeks ago, mostly because I hadn’t tried to write poetry in a few years which pains me to even say because I love the process so much. Like my attempts at painting, I may not create any masterpieces, but it feels really good to be in that creative space. I highly recommend you find your individual passions and practice them regularly. I’m at least feeling like the pen isn’t as rusty as it has been and I can keep going from here.
As long as I can remember
I have always loved going to the park on my birthday
It is the summer air, thick with charcoal and laughter
Tastes like pipe smoke and beer, cotton candy and hot mustard breath.
We sit in anticipation with legs crossed on the crunchy grass,
disguised as friends
But I am the phoenix incarnate, risen from the ashes of my past,
A white wave erupted from the earth’s crusty surface.
We hold hands behind their backs and under our laps
We tell truths and laugh in secret.
The collective is staring upwards, transfixed on the lava rainbows
That sprout outwards in lotus- like starbursts
There are high pitched screams in reds and blues and purples
The greens roar into my chest like wild thunder
Our hearts in our palms fizzle proud
Until they fade to soft whispers of satiated smoke petals
Puffs of pastel jelly fish clouds.
With each explosion the crowd ooohs and ahhs in synchronistic wonder
But even without the legal papers, we have our life promises
We meet our delicious desires in this darkness.
They are too injured by lies and so cannot see
These are not just ordinary sky filled jewels
These birthday fireworks belong only to you
Only to me
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I am a 43 year old mother of 3, living in Florida with my partner and youngest child. Like the mythological phoenix, I have been reborn out of the ashes of my former way of life and have, for the last several years, set out on an exploration of self expression through visual art and creative writing. I am immensely grateful to feel a part of every living thing in existence and the emergence of a growing evolution of consciousness within and throughout. I am interested in all aspects of energy healing and spiritual transformation and have just recently become a student of Reiki. I understand there is always a choice and I try to choose love over fear at every turn. I am grateful for all of the other women in this group and for their ever present support and guidance. Jennifer Bothast