A meeting between ‘the queen of hearts’ and your desperate and jugemental mind at times when you feel that you loose control in your life – for those hard times you seem to enter ‘the dark night of the soul’.
First of all : STOP BEATING YOU UP! RIGHT NOW!
There is nothing “wrong” with you. You are right where you have to be in terms of your spiritual development, and you will be alright soon, take courage, don’t take a beer for now.
We will drink a bottle of champagne together and have a party when this is over.
Or maybe we will just sit together in sacred silence, it’s up to you.
Second : FORGET ALL YOU LEARNED ABOUT SPIRITUALITY UNTIL NOW!
It is not going to help you. It is not ‘knowledge’ you have lack of, it is not the right technique you need to find, it is not the right way to God, or heaven, or the improvement of your cosmic connection, or the cleaning of your aura, or your body, or the cleaning of your thought patterns.
This is not to say that I ask you to give your spiritual awareness away.
This will not happen and you know it, deep down inside of you.
The only thing is that knowledge or techniques are not going to help you at this particular stage of growth. If they were, they would have helped you to get over your pain and fear of the darkness you feel yourself drowning in.
They sure helped you to get here, they are supporting your process, but they are not the strongest tool to use right now.
When this is over you will find that your spiritual connection has grown, your connection to God and the highest sources will be obvious, your aura will be cleaned up, destructive thought patterns will have changed, and major healing took place, only because you allowed yourself to let go of control.
Don’t be afraid, the angels are standing by, Father God is watching you.
The Queen of the Universe is in charge for now. Mother Mary sends you her Blessings.
On the table we lay down the cards of your life.
The joker of the day is the Queen of Hearts.
She says : Please come near me, I am with you now, I hold your hand, right here in mine.
I will not let go, until the morning light.
Go for it, you have come so far. You are so beautiful by now, you made so much effort, there is so much you brought to this world you can be grateful for by now. There is so much Love you ‘deserve’ to pass through your life, so much beauty you have the right to enjoy, so much Love waiting for you behind this curtain.
Come with me, let’s enter this nightmare of yours together, knowing that it is just a dream.
Nothing more, just a nightmare, disintegrating in the first sparkles of sun in the morning, the morning that is coming soon. It always comes. You know it, nightmares always end, a new dawning always arrives.
Look outside, when it’s daytime now, where did the night go?
And when it is night, has it always been this way? Aren’t there moments in your memory where there is this big sun shining at your face.
I promise, you will feel the warmth of this sun again, it will touch you with its Love, stronger and warmer than ever before.
In the meantime, cherish this night. Cherish yourself in this experience. Get under cover.
Search a warm spot where you feel comfortable, where you feel like hiding.
Be very, very gentle with yourself.
Feel safe to spend some time with yourself right here, right now. Lay down your head to rest, to receive, to heal, and listen to this Heartbeat for a while. Feel Life. That’s all.
Wherever the morning light will take you, I’ll be at your side, you are not alone.
You never really have been.
For I have been waiting for you, for such a long long time.
I know you don’t know me, and maybe you never ever really will, it doesn’t matter.
Just allow yourself to be here and to receive and to share what lives inside of you.
But please, please, don’t speak too much, don’t disturb the silence, keep listening to the Heartbeat, your heartbeat, keep listening, give this heartbeat the space to expand, this is the most important thing for you, right now. That’s all… be, listen, feel… don’t run… count the minutes, allow yourself to relax, to float… I am standing on guard…
Thank you for coming, … at last, … hi.
Queen of Hearts