Continuing on from Part 2
Sometimes we experience grief when we experience major change in our lives, even when we experience health issues. When I was dealing with Thyroid Cancer, I went through a grieving process when I was through it.
I know that sounds strange, I should have been overjoyed and ready to move forward with my life when I returned to health. What I felt instead was a sense of loss, because people around me saw that I was okay and didn’t need to be around as much anymore. My doctors didn’t need to see me as often, I didn’t need physiotherapy as much, my family and other supports didn’t need to be there for me as much. My life was returning to normal, but I felt this emptiness when all that was gone.
Over the last few years, I have experienced major changes in my life. It has often felt like I am on a wild roller coaster ride. It seems that whenever I go through the process of letting go of an old way of being, or let go of a part of my life that doesn’t serve me anymore, I experience some wild emotions that feels similar to losing a person. I experienced that recently when I ended my involvement with an annual fundraising event I have been a part of for several years. The following week I was incredibly emotional and didn’t understand why.
When we let go, whether it be something we are a part of, a person, or a belief that lies deep within us, there is a space that is created. Sometimes old pain is triggered as it moves to the surface to be released. We might even return to old patterns temporarily. This pain can feel as real and as when we lose someone. It is almost like a pendulum swinging back and forth. When you create change to move in one direction, sometimes you fly back the other way for a bit until you are able to come to rest at a new place.
I find now, that once I have let go, and allow myself to experience whatever emotion I need to feel and acknowledge that I am creating space in my life for something new to come in, I move quickly through all the emotion and creativity starts to flow. I stop dwelling on what I released from my life and focus on remaining open to allowing something new in.
Thank you for taking this walk with me.
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Leah Schroeder is a Reiki Practitioner www.lifeforcehealingservices.ca and Financial Advisor. “I was born and raised in Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada. For most of my 46 years this has been and currently is the place I call home. I have been working as a Financial Advisor for the past 15 years educating people about their finances, helping them restructure and reduce debt, invest for the future and properly protect their families. A strong sense that there is something more I am supposed to do in the world, a fascination with energy and a series of intuitive nudges has led me to begin practising Reiki. I have a desire to learn and practise other healing modalities, as well as serve children and empower young women around the world. I am grateful for the opportunity to share my thoughts and stories with you.”